World of Oblivion

2012-01-26T21:31:00.002+08:00

Day 2

Packing her stuff just brings back so many emotions...

When i packed her clothes, i realised that i've promised to give her a space yet until this very day, her clothes is still mixed together with mine in my wardrobe..

I used to grumble that all her stuff has taken over a large portion of my drawer.. but when i collected them from my drawer, there were only 4 bottles..

All these while i never really pay attention to all these little detials, i've been too engrossed with myself, my social life and never really spared a thought for her

All i ever did was grumble, quarrel and made life very difficult for her.. and never once did she ever left me, always being patience and tolerating my nonsense..

I've never given her the status and the respect that she well deserve and taking advantage of her time and again..

She has always questioned me as to why am i treating her unlike the way i treated my ex-gf ... i always avoided the qns because i didnt feel any differences.. but having gone 2 days without her by my side.. i sat down and think.. i realised that here is a girl who will take care of me no matter what happens, who supported me in whatever i do and who have given up a lot of things for me...
On the other hand, in my previous r/s i had to give up my social life because my world just evolved around my gf...

I didn't realised how fortunate i was till i lost her..

I know i should be moving on since she has already started to move on...
I hope i can..

2012-01-25T09:10:00.003+08:00

It might not be the most sincere way of apologizing but I really don't know what else can I do...

I'm really sorry for hurting you time and again. Maybe you're right, i don't love you as much as you do.

Throughout the years, i've forgotten what love really is.
To me love means carrying out my duties whether i like it or not and that's the reason why our relationship couldn't make it.

When we choose to end it, i knew it wasn't on impulse, as much as we love each other, we hated each other as well. Our problems have escalated to the extend that every time we quarrel, i will avoid it.

Many a times, I choose to keep quiet because i don't want us to quarrel and hope the problem slips away quietly.
If you ask me, what are the problems that we have? I really don't know... to me nothing seem to be the problem, and this attitude itself is the problem.

I'm sorry for putting you down in front of your friends... I'm not a good boyfriend and I don't deserve the love and support that you've showed me over the years.

I woke up this morning and I felt lost... For the first time in nearly 3 years, i've lost the strength to do anything.... you were my pillar of support that i've took advantage of time and again...

All along I knew that if anything was to happen, i can turn to you because you are my best friend, my best listener.. even though I've always laughed and make fun of you, but you were the best I can ever have..

Most of the time, I don't say things like that to you because I don't express my inner thoughts out to anyone not even to myself..

I should have told you my intention of setting up a home with you.. i know its too late to say that now...

I set this goal and showed it to everyone in Shung's group... I already had the intention to proposed to you on our anniversary this year.. I know its not use saying all this because it doesn't change anything...

I would have like all other occasions ask you to reconsider and let us get back together... one of the reason why i didn't do it this time round was because i felt that i'm being unfair to you if i were to do it. I don't want to keep making empty promises...

I'm sorry, I really am...

I love you, Jiali and i really hope that amidst all this, you can find the strength to study for your exams, i'm sorry it has to happen now.. i rather you hate me now than to hate me forever..

Fade away...

2011-01-07T17:43:00.002+08:00

Tension grows with each passing day..
Unlike the past 2 years.. this is the most important..
For it determines my future and my pay..

I could have take things easy and bank on just clearing all my modules..
But this isn't me.. i hope to excel.. Excel in everything i do..that's me .. the perfectionalist me..

I've given myself undue stress.. every single detail.. i want it to be executed with perfection..
It's tough being me.. but i know its just a passing phase.. 5 months is all it takes .. and a good long break awaits..

Some thoughts..

2010-08-25T02:16:00.002+08:00

Being a teacher wasn't something i wanted when i was young...

I could still remember vividly during my pre-school days, my teacher asked me "What do you want to be when you grow up?"

I replied "A lawyer".

That was when i was 5.

Years later, after i graduated with my O level, i thought of the same question again..

"Chemist". And i was very serious about it.. because my love for chemistry grew by the days.

So much so that I took up a Diploma titled "Chemical Pharmaceutical Technology" but it wasn't what i wanted...

Yet I completed my course with an above average results..

Just before i graduated from poly, my lecturer asked me.. "what do you want to do after this?"

I replied very confidently "I can't wait to start work in the industry because i want to show the world what i can do..."

I was bent on making a name for myself in the industry.. not as a chemist nor an engineer.. but rather in the Sales and Marketing line..

From my boyhood dream of becoming a lawyer to Sales was a 360 degree change... until i started taking up tutoring..

Ever since i started tutoring 4 years ago, i realised i'm being drawn into an amazing stage.. where my performance as a tutor will be closely watched... it was tough at first.. parents judged me on my age and my dress code.. but over time i managed to win their hearts and build a strong rapport with their kids..

I've had many students over the past few years.. some did exceptionally well.. while others nearly made it.. I'm proud of myself as a tutor.. and love my job as a role model ..

As i'm nearing the end of my academic calender.. i asked myself this very same question again.. "what do i want to be when i have gotten my degree"

It was a fight between a teacher and a sales manager ..

Days ago, I've sent out an email to MOE inquiring about the programmes they have for Degree holders. I'm really happy that I do not have to go through the whole Diploma nor the BSc programme again as it will take 3 years and 4 years respectively.

They have a Post Graduate Diploma for degree holders, but what worries me is the recognition of my degree.

After all, i'm not a NTU, NUS or SMU undergrad.

Their reply came back today, and their answer to that was simply a "grey answer".

Nothing substantial. This really disappoints me.

I guess i will be applying for the PGDE sometime in Feb next year.. and hopefully the answer will be a YES!

2010-06-28T10:48:00.002+08:00

I guess this is perhaps the longest period vacant from blogging.. a good 6 months..

During this 6 months many things happened .. I've finally gotten myself a new bike.. a whooping 600cc touring bike which i had already used it to tour up north (Malacca, Bt Indah, Kulai) it's a really nice feeling to go holidaying with your bike..

My helmet business was a success and i managed to had a healthy profit margin of 25% but because the market is too saturated i've stopped selling them since the last helmet was sold..

Exams was pretty okay i supposed.. my initial fear of failing OTIA was must overcome after sitting for the paper.. so i think i'm saved again this year!

The past two months passed by even faster than i expected.. I started my own tuition agency together with Andy(yes that's right my tutor of many years and now my business partner) and it should be up by the end of July..
I don't know whether it will be successful, but i'm giving myself a full 1 year to make it happen.. so if you're a tutor/student looking for a tutor.. visit my website at www.ibrilliant.com.sg when the web is ready ya!

Not only did i started my own business, i've also been given a chance to take the insurance exam .. no don't start shunning away from me.. i've no intention to become an insurance agent! Just that, it's a very good opportunity for me to broaden my horizon .. passing the exam will give me an added advantage if i want to apply for a job in the banking sector.. that's my intention!

I'm really looking forward to the 2nd half of the year.. Maybe i will start writing regularly again.. maybe I won't.. but still this place will be here .. till the day where i passed on.. :)

--Louis Chin

Months and Days away...

2010-02-24T18:32:00.000+08:00

I've started blogging since i was in poly year two.. and throughout this period i've had periods like this where i became totally lazy and unwilling to put in any effort in blogging..

I should probably be keeping this blog all locked up once again...

This has been a place where i've had many ups and downs recorded..

Exams are coming fast and furious.. with so many things to study i'm wondering will i be able to do well this time round..

Peace at heart.. gonna rush for my tuition ..

2010-01-14T02:04:00.002+08:00

It's amazing how some people can be so hypocrtical.. one moment they are laughing and talking to you or HITCHING A RIDE IN YOUR BLOODY CAR OR BIKE.. the next moment.. they backstab you like no tomorrow!

FUck this people.. merely cowards!

It has always been LOUIS AGAINST THE WORLD.. so how different can this period be???

KISS MY ASS!

2009-11-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

Looking forward to a commoners life style again...!

5 days more and it's all over!!!

ROY TAN I WILL BE HUNTING YOU FOR SUPPER AFTER 28TH!

2009-11-19T23:40:00.002+08:00

Watching my mother suffer with the simplest of task...
I felt so useless..
There aren't anything that I can do to relieve her off the pain..

Her diet now is purely fluid... and even by drinking off a straw can bring tears to her eyes..
Seeing how vulnerable she is right now.. is akin to having thousand of knife piercing through my heart..

The next 9 days will determined whether she needs another surgery to her jaw.. I'm keeping my fingers crossed..

With my mother nursing herself back to full health, there comes another problem.. there isn't anyone who can help my father with his stall..

Sigh..

It's been like forever since i last heard from you..
I don't know what happened, nor where you are..
I hate this feeling really..
Question marks hanging on top of my head..
I've lost..

---Louis Chin

2009-11-13T23:48:00.003+08:00

My mum...

She's not well..
She's walking with a limp...
Talking with a glitch..
Stitches on her lips..

Holding her bruised tummy that is bloated up so badly that you can sense her pain...
It pains to see her in this state..
Just when things are looking up...
The doctor came back with the results..
That her jaws are broken..

Surgery after surgery..
This is not how a holiday trip should end..
I will not take this lying..
Trust me I wont..

---Louis chin

2009-11-09T02:25:00.002+08:00

I'm really indecisive when it comes to relationship... this is a fact that has haunted me for the past 24 years..

Time and again, I've failed to cherish the one I love and ended up regretting it after..

Yes, indeed I'm have a glib tongue to be proud of.. yet again, everything I've said and done came from the very bottom of my heart.. I'm an open book, everyone knows that and emotions are written all over my face...

Shutting the door right across your face..
I've hurt you..
In the cruelest way possible..
I've cut all contact..
You went through hell..
Only to be given a new lease of life..
Yet, here I am..
Knocking at your door..
Wishing for another chance..
To re-live the dreams..

I'm losing you everyday...
I truly deserve it..
I long for the day..
Where I can hold your arms again..

--- Louis Chin

2009-11-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I'm able to take time out to sit at my desk to blog about things...

Well, ever since school started.. I've been staying in school till 10pm almost everyday! Not to study... but to plan ODAC events...

It really is fun .. but everything comes with a price.. and this time round.. my grades are suffering.. it's really hard to juggle school and odac as i'm beginning to feel the heat from staying up till late every night!

Anyway, i've been offered a job by redbull.. and i'm really considering long and hard whether to take up the offer.. it's really a high commitment job and i'm not really sure if i'm able to time manage..

--- Louis Chin

2009-10-08T01:00:00.002+08:00

To be honest, I really love school.. School days passed by like really quickly that I sometimes wish it will slow down a little to let me savor every part of it...

My weekends are really pack..

meeting up with my brothers on sat .. and my polymates on sunday!

Two dates which i'm really looking forward to!

2009-09-30T01:09:00.004+08:00

Happened to browse through some of the old photos.. felt really unhappy.. 1 year was all it take to change everything..

I just wish that I could turn back time..
To the days where i was still a nobody..
Where life was simple, peaceful and happy..
Where genuine smiles were on everyone's faces..

Sigh...

2009-09-27T01:26:00.003+08:00

Alright.. I'm addicted YET AGAIN!

HAha not to smoking or drinking or gambling.. but BASKETBALL-ING!

I've been like wasting a lot of money on the basketball game in the arcade.. it's like wherever I go.. I will definitely visit the arcade for a dose of the game!

So much so that I've influenced my gayest buddy to join me with the game!

First week of school went with the wind.. it was a rather easy week i suppose.. nothing difficult.. took quite sometime to get used to staying alert in class.. nonetheless.. i SURVIVED!

Gonna be an uphill battle soon as my students will be preparing for their finals in a matter of two weeks while I'll have to juggle both tuition and school...
2 weeks of torment following that will be 2 months of freedom (this meant low in income).

I really can't wait for these 2 weeks to pass...

2009-09-24T00:56:00.002+08:00

Alright.. the past two days of school was pretty alright..

I felt a bit rusty though.. as in .. not being able to concentrate for the whole 1.5hours (we've a 15 mins break after 1.5hours of lect) ...

For the past 3 lectures, I've been zoning out after 45mins and every none and then i get distracted easily.. luckily it's only the 1st week..

I'm taking Organisation Theory, Management Math, Accounting and Mangerial Econs this year... let me know if you're in the same class as i do k!

2009-09-22T03:09:00.002+08:00

There isn't any particular reason for my no-show...
I just didn't feel like going... it's nice to hang out with small groups.. but big group isn't for me...

It was really nice to be spending some time at home.. just slacking... in a matter of 6 hours i will be in school...

Shall update my blog when I'm back home HOPEFULLY i can do so..

2009-09-21T00:33:00.006+08:00

My holidays passed by pretty quickly and I can't believed just how fast I'm heading back to school..

In a matter of 24 hours I will be sitting in the lecture.. attending my very first lecture as a YEAR 2 student!

I'm not too sure if that's a good or bad thing.. but on one hand I'm really anxious to find out what my new modules will be like.. on the other I really dread going back to school, sitting through the long boring lectures.. awaiting the minute hand to hit home and dashing for the door!

But what will be will be.. especially so when there's no stopping "TIME" ...

So what have I been up to recently?

29th August 2009

It's been a while since I last met up with these group of people..
My poly mates..
Ruibin has been my gayest buddy in poly.. whenever you mentioned Louis, RB name comes along.. too bad we switch path during our final year.. otherwise it would be an icing on the cake...
My SC6 girls.. Angela, Idy, Shufang and the ever-missing Jerene..
I still remembered vividly the first time I saw Angela.. i thought she was a retain-ee and I always make fun of her for being the most "CHAO LAO" girl in the class.. but of course I still owe her one..
Shufang, the patient and sweet girl who never flares up at all! I've never ever see her shouting or screaming at any one throughout my entire friendship with her... Of course, she was our ATM throughout our poly life .. and that was probably the reason why we named her AH YEE FINANCE!
Idy, what can I say about her... she's probably the MISS OKAY ... everything you ask of her.. she's okay.. no matter how difficult the situation is, she will make it okay.. that's her ability.. and I'm so so happy to know these 3 girls.. 3 of which have totally different personality from me.. and 3 of which had been the greatest influence in my life..
Though many times, they see me as the CHIEFTAIN of the clique.. but to me.. they are the one that leads me.. not the other way round..
Of course, throughout my blog, I've mentioned my "MENTOR"... she's right there.. I'm lucky to be able to know this incredible person.. I don't know what to say.. but to me.. *speechless* .. I Thank GOD for sending me this "ANGEL" who always guides me and show me the light when I always need them.. who looks after me as her very own son and will never fail to hand me the buoy if I'm drowning..
I can't thank her enough.. but still Thank You Miss Chian..

30th August 2009

Met up with another clique from SIM.. haha it's really quite strange how we knew each other.. and soon we became a lunch buddy who always have lunch after ECON lesson on Wednesdays..
My buddy Roy, life in SIM without him will be so boring.. our classes from year 2 onwards will be entirely different and his presence of sitting beside me will sorely be missed..
Meifung.. the "KAI XIN GUO" of the group.. I really admire her.. she's always laughing and smiling.. even though she's always the center of our jokes but she never takes it to heart and she never ever fails to bring laughter to our group because of her blur-ness..

ODAC

What can I say.. no doubt ODAC has been part of my life ever since I took on the role as an EXCO.. but it's like sapping away my life?
Perhaps I've been the controversial one and honestly, it's really affecting me greatly..
Something I have learnt from being an exco is, you can never work with your closest friend.. because you will see the ugly side of life.. your closest friend is the one that hurts you the most..
I'm truly grateful that I've found a NEW BEST FRIEND in SANTONO.. who's always there listening to my whines, complains, problems and AS-A-MATTER-OF-FACT-VIEWS...
Circumstance changes a person and yes this is so very true.. people change .. even I have changed..

I should be updating more on ODAC events.. hopefully I can find the time tomorrow.. because talking about ODAC is like hitting on the nerves.. it's really a very touchy topic nowadays..

I finally understand why HS quit being an EXCO..

2009-09-20T02:47:00.001+08:00

I realised I've been so busy that I'm hardly blogging nowadays..

I've loads to talk about.. and I will do it later in the day when my tuition and stuff are over.

---Louis CHin

2009-09-12T17:20:00.001+08:00

OH MAN I HONESTLY DUNNO WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BLOG!
WILL RECTIFY IT ASAP!

2009-09-01T05:18:00.002+08:00

Oh man, i can't believe that I actually woke up in the middle of the night to check my results...

I'm a little disappointed with my results really..
I was very very confident of my econs.. but I only managed a passed.. I dunno why and how did I even score such a low results... it's stunning...

I did farely well for my IBM and average for my SOCI.. but I was really looking forward to scoring for soci, econs and both maths and stats.. but yah.. Econs was the one that made me still up and not able to go back to bed.. SIGH...

ECONS: 3rd Class
MATHS/STATS: 1st class
SOCI: 2nd Class (Lower)
IBM: 2nd Class (Lower)

So so disappointed...

--- Louis Chin

2009-08-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

Human nature...

When people goes to the temple, mosque, church or any religious place.. they ask that their prayers be answered.. or some directions..

If their directions are good.. then they will believe that "GOD" does exist.. however.. if the direction points elsewhere apart from good.. they doubt "GOD" ..

Like wise.. i gave a link to some friends of mine for their results.. it's not 100% accurate though.. I've never said it was.. but when people see that they have cleared all their results.. they got happy.. when some sees that they fail a certain module.. they question my creditability.. in the first place.. results wasn't even suppose to be out till 1st Sept, it was by chance that i managed this link..

I'm sick of explaining over and over again.. and therefore I'm gonna say.. RESULTS ARE NOT OUT.. SO DON'T BOTHER TRYING TO FIND OUT!!!

--- Louis Chin

*PS: Leave me alone.. i'm a loner to begin with..

2009-08-27T12:25:00.002+08:00

Should I or Should I not go for white water rafting....

It's a perfect getaway from life here.. but...

--- Louis Chin

2009-08-26T13:56:00.002+08:00

Feeling lousy, disappointed and exasperated...
I'm taking a break from one and all..
Not wanting to comment, speak nor hear..
I just want to live a life without tears..
--- Louis Chin

I'm officially breaking off all my duties from ODAC... for a while that is..
Till when? I'm not too sure.. but one thing is for sure.. I love waking up as and when I like and not having to set my alarm reminder everyday or being interrupted by smses early in the morning.

I'm thinking of off-ing my phone for this period.. complete tranquility is what I really want...
Things happen for a reason.. and the perfect reason is me myself and I.. disappearing for a while might well do the trick..

2009-08-24T01:30:00.002+08:00

Whenever I give my students home work their reply would be
"huh.. homework again... I got many school work leh..."

So being the naggy tutor of theirs... I would give them a narration of life.. of what the job of a student is...

Basically students have only one task.. and that is HOMEWORK...

I personally don't feel like I'm that much of a student because I've no tests, no assignments, no presentations.. I only have an exam every year and it's only during this period which i really know what it feels like to be a student.. but really I love preparation for exams... no doubt its strenous but I feel exceptionally "smart" and "bright" prior to the exams..

Anyway.. I saw a post of an ex-closed-friend .. and it set me pondering... if you can juggle work and school, you're a hero...
If you can juggle cca and school, you too are a hero..
If you can juggle cca, work, friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, school, family.. you're superman..

Meaning to say.. you can't exactly juggle so many things at one go.. you have to learn to give up something somewhere along the line.. if your priority are not right.. you will FAIL.. and very badly!

Worse of all.. this friend never learn from previous experience!

Good luck people... enjoy your holidays or exams..

--- Louis chin

2009-08-19T21:07:00.003+08:00

18th Aug 2009.. a day I will definitely remember for life..

Being abandoned by a group of people who claims to be your friend.. and worse of all one who HAD been your buddy for years...??

This is life...

--- Louis Chin

2009-08-18T00:26:00.002+08:00

1 week of non-smoking !!!

I'm really proud to be hitting one week.... and i hope this run can last forever!!!

It's really tough .. and i mean really really tough.. cause the urge keeps coming and going.. especially when I'm so used to smoking whenever i perform a certain action...

Like for instance... the first thing in the morning when i wake up i will smoke... after meals i will smoke... when im waiting for my bike to warm up i will smoke and when i drive i will smoke..

Suddenly doing all these things without smoking feels really really weird... but after 1 week of repeated motion.. i finally go the hang of it..

There are of course some ways to curb that urge..

Like after meals, i tend to take a short nap to prevent the urge from "exposing" too much.. popping sweets every now and then helps of course.. and eclipse has so far taken over "viceroy" from time to time...

Time to sleep.. waking up for a run in 7 hours time!!

--- Louis Chin

2009-08-13T00:42:00.002+08:00

Something happened to me a couple of days back and it serve as a wake up call...

That was perhaps the final straw to everything.. and i decided enough is enough..

Having received such a huge blow.. I decided to change my lifestyle for good.. or rather quit smoking for good.. that very morning, i broke all my cigarettes.. all remaining 10 of them !

I'm gonna run on every alternate days to keep myself going...

It's really really tough especially when you see people around you lighting up ... but really I'm determined not to fail this time round...

I'm on a 37 hours run without smoking now.. and honestly I don't really feel good.. the withdrawal syndrome comes once in a while and that feeling sucks big time.. but again it's just MIND OVER BODY!

--- Louis CHin

2009-08-10T12:09:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish I know what's on your mind..
You're so difficult to phantom that I feel like I'm just going in circles..

--- Louis
Lost my sense of direction

2009-08-01T03:00:00.002+08:00

Let me know if you need me..
I can't do anything for you but I'm all ears if you need someone to talk to ...

Even if you're too tired to talk.. I will just be there to show you my support ..
Take care my dear...

--- Louis chin

2009-07-30T23:39:00.001+08:00

Having finished the book by Haruki Murakami moments earlier I didn't felt as excited as I started out to be...

Many of you would have had similar experienced...

When we started off reading a book (movies, drama or anything), the initial content was slow, dull and pretty much boring.. half way through, you started to get the hang of the writer's language and twist.. as you read on.. you are very much a part of the character.. and the more you read the more you want to find out the ending..
Having reached the end.. you found yourself in a situation where you hope that it didn't came as soon as you wanted..

Many thoughts came through my mind as the book covers came to a closed.. the pages passionately binded each other and as soon as the book came to a rest on the coffee table.. my world went silent..

The chatting of "ah beng stories" from the table next to me, to students in deep discussion in the enclosed mac and the noise from the pipe of bikes broke the silent ..

I was in an emotional roller coaster having read this paragraph in Haruki's book
".. but in real life things don't go smoothly. At certain points in our life, when we really need a clear cut solution, the person who knock at our door is, more likely than not, a messenger bearing bad news."

How very true this sentence is... life isn't a bed of roses.. things don't just flow smoothly without hiccups, technology never fails to fail people whenever we need them to function on important occasions... the traffic light always seem to turn red on you when you're rushing for time..

Most of the time when these things happened, I slump into uncontrollable fits... my mood became unpredictable and I became a really harsh person overnight.. ever since I've matured with age, I've tried to aim for perfection.. and because I placed a great deal of effort in everything I do, I became rather competitive... not with anyone but with myself..

I know reaching the zenith in every opportunity is hardly possible, but yet I'm still greatly affected by the fact that I'm not able to reach my ideal result and slowly I started to drift.. from everyone and everything..

Having a time out like this makes perfect sense ... it allows me to rest physically and mentally .. I'm kind of addicted to moments like this where I can have the world to myself with no added responsibility other than finishing my book and blogging thereafter.

Completing the first biography marks a huge milestone in my 24 years... To be completely honest, I love reading a good book... and I'm truly not a very huge fan of biographies (with due respect) .. due to the fact that I believed everyone has a story to tell and biographies are often stories of how the author had fallen from grace, went through a lot of hell and became where he is/was today..

But this book tells nothing more than how he have given up on his luxurious lifestyle to pursue a dream that just came instantaneously...
He stick till the very end with every goals he set for himself and though the going was tough.. he endured it all and break all odds to become an author..

"Having completed a race, you forget all about the pain you've endured to get to where you are.." --- Haruki Murakami

--- Louis Chin

2009-07-27T02:13:00.002+08:00

In life... there are many crossroads that one has to face...
Whether we like it or not.. we've to make a decision somewhat..

It's like when you're standing at the pedestrian crossing... you've a choice.. to cross it even when the green man isn't showing or you can simply wait for the green man to appear and cross..

That is if you want to cross over to the other side.. however.. you can simply stay put.. and wait for the world to evolve around you ... seeing cars passing you with every min and the sight of the intermittent flashing green man before you..

Back to cross roads.. decisions making are perhaps the most frightening experience anyone has to go through.. because people are fearful of making a wrong decision.. many of us are afraid of making mistakes.. but the thing is... nothing is 100% in this world.. there isn't any decision that are bad decision.. it's just how one perceive..

Perception is indeed vital.. I have made numerous decision that i lived to regret.. yes.. but it's only after the process that I understand.. of course you always take something positive out of any poor judgment you made.. and this only serve to make you wiser .. people learnt from mistakes..

I just spoke to a friend with regards to her job interview moments later.. she's like dying to get a healthy income.. but the thing is she's worried.. worried about what comes after..
Will she be able to find a better job after this?
Will she be able to work with another friend of hers?
Will she be able to get the other job?
Will she be able to....

Too many worries.. far too many.. opportunities come and go.. chances that comes knocking won't wait for you ... it's either a yes or no...
Indeed it's only a natural thing to worry about not "having someone to lunch with" ... but haven't everyone went through the very same thing and still managed to acquaintance with people from the very same company?

A lot of times, I made decisions with my eyes closed.. like the nike slogan "JUST DO IT" .. because i knew there are 1001 excuses to reject any opportunity but only a handful to accept it.. the more u think about it.. the more restless you feel...

I know it's unhealthy to just stick my head in without considering.. but life's like that.. any investment can be a success only if you deem it successful.. vice versa.. even if you have made millions from an investment it can still be considered a failure.. it's how one PERCEIVED!

I'm not entirely making sense in this long essay.. but I only have a point to make.. it all boils down to ..
"What drives you..."
Listen to your inner self and answer his/her call .. ultimately you don't live a life to satisfy others.. you live a life to satisfy yourself..

--- Louis Chin

2009-07-26T18:45:00.002+08:00

It's never too lonely to be alone..
It's just how one perceive..

Nothing beats spending some quality time alone..
Finishing a book in a quiet corner of the earth where nobody knows you but yourself..
Not many people understand this kind of joy..
People who are on the same frequency will truly understand what I meant..
But for people who don't.. it's very hard to make them .. no matter how you try.. they never will..

I'm not isolating myself from the world... don't worry but i'm just really tired.. tired of answering phone calls, tired from planning, tired from explaining, tired of lecturing and tired of showing up...

As stephanie sun once said... resting is to continue a longer route.. that's what i'm doing.. i wanna rest my mind for now...

Kidos..

--- Louis Chin

Alone

2009-07-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

"It isn't about how fast you run.. rather.. how far you ran.." --- Haruki Murakami

Truly.. this is an exceptionally good book.. I'm not a big fan of biographies but yet Haruki Murakami's biography truly amazed me..

Just came back from some precious moment which i spent with no one but myself.
Had a cup of hot chocolate to go with this really good book.. I've longed for such quiet moment alone.. where I can do some close reading and thinking with no one around..
No it isn't that I'm a loner and that I'm all caught up in my own world.. rather.. these moments are hard to come by.. as I aged with time.. I realized how important it is to spend some quality time by myself.. in fact I'm not shy to say that I love being left alone..

A few years ago, if anyone were to tell me that I would be spending 2 hours at McCafe all by myself.. I would have shut that person off and said it's impossible.. for I feared being left alone .. but ever since then.. things have changed dramatically..

This is the period where I can really examined what I've went through.. what are some of the things which I should have done that I haven't and what are some of the things that went really wrong..

It's never too late to change.. but it will be if we don't admit our mistakes and learned from it.. because no one is a SAINT .. everyone makes mistake...

I'm not a buzzing writer.. I express myself very well in the virtual world.. however in the real world.. I tend to keep to myself .. no reason in particular..

It's a lifestyle I've chosen and sometimes my relationship with other people gets problematic because I've became a closed book and people are not really used to seeing this side of me... soon soon.. they will get used to it :)

A book with grace..

2009-07-23T02:13:00.003+08:00

I met up with TL just hours ago for she had something that she want to pass to me from my mentor...
I didn't know what it was till she revealed that it's actually a book..

A book? I didn't lend my mentor books of any kind.. perhaps the only time I spoke to her on books were "Man and Boy" and "Man and Me" ..

But still, I received the book with grace.. and the title of the book is "What I talk about, When I talk about.. Running"
Of course, I haven't started reading.. but soon..

I read through my mentor's blog and I know there's something she wants me to learn from this book .. maybe I've already guessed it..

But still what triggers her to send me this exceptional gift..

Quoted from her blog

"We have never said that if you do not return with a medal, you will disappoint us. Running in a race is a strange activity. It is done in solitude but together with the rest of the runners. You listen to your own footsteps and your own breathing rhythm. And only you yourself know when you are pushing your limits and pressing on when giving up seems to be the easiest thing to do. No one except you know when you have run a good race."

Winning isn't about everything .. it's about the effort that you've put in... the sense of accomplishment prevails more than anything else...

Thank you Ms Chian.. i look forward to seeing you soon..

--- Louis Chin

Thinking out loud..

2009-07-22T02:52:00.003+08:00

I suddenly felt a rush of emotions as I was blog hopping around...
This is like the first time in as many months that I finally had the time to read through the blogs on my "Friend List"

I really felt damn bad for not being able to be there for my friends when they were down.. (or am I needed in the first place...)

Every drive alone makes me go deep in thoughts... I'm truly not as an open book as people deem I am.. that's because I'm always the man behind the mask ... it's daunting trying to put on a show... but that's life.. everyone is hiding behind a mask..

Sometimes I'm really half hoping that I can just break free from everything and everyone.. tuition, family, friends, ODAC and just go for a short holiday...

If it wasn't for my bike accident I would have been gone by now.. fulfilling the trip to Taiwan that didn't went too well 2 years back..
I'll definitely be back there someday .. not entirely because of the place.. but because of the memories i had kept for the last year..

Traveling alone might seem really lonely.. but what diff does it make for people who eats alone, catching movies alone, drinking and watching their favourite tv programs alone?

I honestly don't know whether this is the "real" me but I really feel like breaking away from life.. from the hectic and busy schedule ... can I?

Friends have adviced me not to..
Friends.. were supposed to be with u when u needed them most.. yet.. this very group of people will choose to forsake you when you're down and out...
They sway with popularity...
this is the fact!

Anyway I'm just bitching.. or am I?

--- Louis Chin

Updates...

2009-07-21T05:45:00.006+08:00

I just realised i haven't really blog for a while..

The past week has gone like really really fast..

Been busy gate-crashing ODAC's OG outings and of course planning for the next event ODAC NIGHT CYCLING!

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ODAC Freshmen Camp

The camp was in a way a huge success... it was really a tough journey prior to the camp but the effort was really worth it..
Though I didn't really get to enjoy myself as much as I want to .. but my freshies are truly one bunch of crazy folks..
There were many hiccups along the way but luckily the ODAC pillars didn't collapse and boy did we do wonders!
All in all.. it was a camp worth remembering!

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OG 1 Dinner OG 3 chillax

OG1 was the first group to have an outing and i was really amazed by their cohesiveness.. almost everyone from the group turn up..
I went gate-crashing their dinner since i've nothing much to do..
It's nice to see the freshmen so bonded after the camp!
Hope the bonds stay forever and on!

OG 3 chilling session was next.. over at timbre old school.. that place truly has a very nice ambiance ..
I was really reluctant to go initially as I'm far too lazy to travel.. all thanks to Daph for bugging me throughout the day ..

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Meeting Meeting and more meeting...

Yet again, we have to start planning for the upcoming activity.. Night Cycling...

Half way through the meeting.. I caught a glimpse of her.. it's been like almost a year since i last saw her..
I didn't felt a twinge of sadness seeing her with another guy.. rather i felt more at ease.. sensing that she's much happier than she was with me ..

Anyway.. after the meeting we went for prawning at Bishan.. oh my i only got like 1 miserable prawn after an hour of prawning!!!
What luck!

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Finally OG 6 outing!

Had a get-together with my freshie today.. felt really bad to be 2 hours late as i was busy talking to Vic's Mum and trying to get my bike alarm fixed...

Anyway the turn up rate was pretty bad i guess.. half expecting the whole OG to turn up but nonetheless it was a good outing..

We had steamboat over at Bugis and spent half the time camwhoring.. and so my freshies already learnt the trademark of ODAC--- Camwhoring!
Goodness me.. we had like 6 cameras snapping away every minute and my eyes nearly got blinded by all the flashes!

Having had dinner and dessert.. Ben Kyl Pam and me went over to Bottom Tree Park to look for the rest of 13th for prawning.. yet again.. our catch wasn't that ideal.. i bet it's my luck man!

Met up with Yichao and we went to JB immediately after my prawning session.. we felt like a king over there! The things are like really really cheap.. imagine smoking sheesha for like 15rm!!! Freaking cheap!

Alright that's it for the week.. man am i burnt out!!! More meetings tomorrow!!!

----Louis Chin

FOT 2009

2009-07-12T16:07:00.003+08:00

A camp that started..
With faces so alienated...
The day drag on..
As bonds are beginning to form...

Shouts of OG 1,2,3,4,5 and 6
Surrounded the walls of a place (dairy farm) with beautiful take..
Sweats trickle down..
As brows are starting to frown..

The unpredictable weather..
With the unpredictable courses..
Took them by surprised..
As the ropes pulled them up high...

Fear was the last thing on their mind..
As they conquered stations after stations..
Sounds of JIA YOU coming from the OGLs
Smile of relieve as they never fell...

The camp ended as soon as it started...
The reluctance of day one..
Took the turn on day three..
Bonds had formed..
That lasts forever and on..
Will we meet again?
Was the question posted again and again..

High five all rounds...
As we await the next year round...

--- Louis Chin

Accident

2009-07-06T00:08:00.000+08:00

Had an accident this afternoon...

Bike skidded.. now my arms and knees are in bandaged!

What a time...

Sigh..

Gonna rest for the day.. next few days gonna limp around liao!

--- Louis

Mister mannequin!

2009-07-01T01:40:00.004+08:00

Thinking of shopping for your beau but don't know what to get?

Too bored at work and wanna do some online shopping?

An all new metro blogshop by two of 13th batch ODACIAN http://mistermannequin.livejournal.com/
(The link is right below.. just click on it!)

I've seen the clothes and personally I feel it's worth to buy.. not too expensive and its reasonably "rare" as you would not want anyone to be wearing something the same as you!

Show some support ya!

--- Louis

Summary...

2009-06-29T12:00:00.004+08:00

I haven't realised it's been a week since my very last post...

Lots of things happened this week.. where shall i begin..

KC & Ah Chong's 24th Birthday

Celebrated my 2 buddies birthday over at east coast... it's been a long time since the few of us got together.. the only sad thing was Yang wasn't available..
Nonetheless, we had a really crazy night.. where we just drink, drank and got really drunk (or rather high) ..
We finished 2 bottles of martel and close to 40 cans of beer!
It might not be an amazing feat if you judge by the number of guys we had.. but it's really amazing as we only had 7 men drinking and finished everything in the space of 2 hours!

Anyway Happy birthday guys!

Republic Run

I simply can't believed that I will complete my first ever marathon! It's only a 5km run but to me it's an amazing feat because I've never ran a marathon before...
I complete my run in slightly over 30 mins.. and I'm really happy with my results!
Up next will be the AHM 10km run!
I'm aiming to complete at least 21km this year!

ODAC Meetings and aftermath...

The past week was filled with planning and meeting for ODAC.. I simply can't think of any particular cca that I'm so involved in except this very one..
I love my role in the group but it's really draining having to have everyone working together.. it's not my job to lead though (i'm not the President just some small fly..)
The camp has been tentatively put on hold.. sigh.. it's really disappointing as all our plannings and involvement will go down the drain..
Can't imagine the faces of the rest of my colleagues..
Keep your heads up people! Things will turn up better!

Long long long entry

2009-06-21T02:19:00.003+08:00

I haven't been myself lately ...
Or rather since when have i been?

I don't recognize the very person that's staring back at me in the mirror...
So mellowed, lifeless and lethargic...

Everyday i wake up and i found myself so caught up with time... I really hate the busy and pack schedule that has been laid up in my organizer..
I dread looking at my "To-Do" list or my "Meeting" list.. it's just never ending!

The only consolation i can get out of all this is probably the money factor..

When you're rotting at home and pacing up and down the house aimlessly everyday, you want to find something to do...
But when you've loads to do.. you tend to miss the feeling of slacking..

That's what I'm feeling this very point in time..

Indecisive? As always...

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As you already know, I'm someone who's always deep in thoughts.. (alright i heard same jeering...)
Despite my busy schedule.. i will just practically zone out at any available moment.. and it's during this period which I'm able to see things from another perspective...

It's really really tiring to hate someone.. especially so when you have to see this person day in day out..
I'm not saying i hate anyone or someone because to me i bear no grudges..
Yes I admit, i may not be the nicest guy around.. an ah-beng lookalike, talk-alike and smoke-alike.. but please don't stereo type just because of this..
I just want each and everyone of you to know that

I DO NOT HATE JIALI AT ALL!
I loved her.. I did.. but just that things didn't worked out back then.. and I'm not canceling out the possibility of FUTURE but i really don't hate her so please stop accusing me of stamping or whatever with her.. things have already gone so bad between the two of us.. so people stop making it worse for me!

--- Louis

Worker bee...

2009-06-20T03:49:00.002+08:00

Been absolutely busy the past couple of weeks/days...

I hardly have time to rest as most of my days are spent either in school or students' place...

There's been really a lot of meeting for the upcoming orientation camp.. too many things to plan, organize and co-ordinate...

and because of that, i have to squeeze all 10 of my students with the available time slots i have.. and that's like squeezing 10 students in erm.. 4 days?

My eye bags are getting heavier with each passing day and just this morning i realised my right eye's swelling!

Time for bed...

--- Louis Chin

Countdown!

2009-06-17T01:01:00.002+08:00

1 more week to pay day! Oh man can't wait to hear the sound of the cash register!

Sports day

2009-06-13T13:19:00.002+08:00

I've been really really enjoying my holidays.. it's amazing how time flies when you're enjoying every bit of it!

Fitness and Sports seem to be on the lips of each and everyone of us.. Somehow or rather Serangoon Khakees has been drawn into the spiral of fitness !!! All thanks to me and KC!

We've been like really crazy over badminton, jogging and any other forms of exercise!

We had 3 hours of badminton yesterday at Sengkang Stadium. Surprisingly Big Ben and Small Ben + Stella joined the usual 3 of us KC, Kae and Me ...
After which, Ben suggested blading which we all agreed in unison and so it was another 2 hours of blading session at East Coast...

Dinner at AMK which was really bad and we headed down to AMK HUB to play the "Basketball" arcade version which Stella was really good in it...

Before leaving the place, Kae and Me decided to try our luck at the plush-machine where you pay $2 to have a try... we spent like close to 10 bucks each and got home with a plush toys!
Quite pro huh!
Me and Kae with our loot!

KC, KX and me Makes 3!

2009-06-06T15:49:00.003+08:00

Just signed up for the 5km run organised by republic poly on the 28th of June..
All my life i've never completed any run that's more than 2.4km and now i'm running double the distance!
But I'm really enjoying every run ...
The past couple of days had been rather sporty.. Met up with two of longest running buddy KX and KC almost everyday!

It's rather funny the way we first met each other.. 3 young kids.. hanging around at the see-saw.. and then they became the best of friends for over 20 years.. !

These 2 guys are so gonna be my best men when i get married in future!

Anyway, KC's not joining us for the 5km run.. he finds it too short.. while me and KX are waiting and training enthusiastically for the big day!

I haven't had time to load my photos or rather I haven't found the drive and determination to load any.. but soon soon.. i will post!

--- Louis Chin

Exercise Day 4!

2009-06-04T18:24:00.002+08:00

Just had 2 hours of badminton and I'm totally burnt out!
It feels like my limbs no longer belong to me... My leg is aching from the past 3 days of jogging and my arms are like hanging there lifeless!
But it does feel good to be sweating out!
I love my life!!!
--- Louis CHin

Trainers over Cig...

2009-06-03T01:07:00.001+08:00

It feels really really good to sweat it out..
Been jogging two days in a row and I'm loving every moment of it...
Soon soon.. I will give up my cig for my trainers!

--- Louis Chin

Tired...

2009-05-31T02:49:00.002+08:00

Too tired to do anything right now..

Will post some pics later on in the day..

Stay tune..

Will she ever know...

2009-05-30T05:00:00.002+08:00

The night breeze came..
As I was walking home...
It freshen my mind...
And the thoughts within...

My world was barely lifted...
Only to realized it's been grounded...
Disappointment came and went..
Hoping and praying this isn't the end...

Am I too hasty?
Are all these worth it?
Are we on the same frequency?
Will she knows how i feel?

Lost in a world of questions without answers..
I tried searching for it...
For the light that would brighten my life...
For the girl that would bring tears (of laughter) to my eyes...

But to no avail...

The world has gone quiet..

---Louis Chin

Reflection..

2009-05-25T03:59:00.002+08:00

With the end of the last paper marks the beginning of fun...
I've been rather pre-occupied lately..
Trying to enjoy this wonderfully gifted period...
I've worked hard throughout the year and this is a well deserved break..

Even though there were sights where I felt I hadn't done enough for any particular paper.. I tell myself it's over.. though I'm not really looking forward for the results but I know it's gonna head home sooner or later...

There are 1001 things that I've planned to do and I'm so glad that I can have the time to do it...
Immediately after my exam on thurs, I cleared my room, packed my bag, drawer and every thing on top of my wardrobe.. thrown tons and tons of clothes and sold as much bags and gadgets as possible.. the end product? A huge sense of satisfaction..

I've told many of my girls that I'm gay.. truth is I'm not :) it's just that I haven't found the right person in my life yet.. it's been nearly 8 mths since i last talk or saw her.. have I really let go of the past?
That remains a huge mystery... but for sure, she still remains an important integral of my life...

Recently, I've met this girl.. In every sense, she fits the bill of what I look for as a gf.. but because there are too much implications involve, I can't bring myself to focus or rather fall in love... I really wish that I can just go on a regular date with her but... there are too many question marks hanging... Should I or should I not?

I've forgotten what it feels like to be madly in love.. to long for someone to hold... to talk and cuddle the girl of my life.. all this seems to be so vaguely familiar ...

I'm not desperate for a girl but rather I'm desperate for someone whom I can share my thoughts and feelings with ease.. someone whom i can pour my souls out.. someone whom can share my burden.. someone whom can enlighten me of the deserted pathway before me..

Yet again.. where is she?

--- Louis Chin

Dawn's breaking..
Birds are chipping..
Here I am..
Pining and Missing (her)...

Refurbrishing..

2009-05-23T12:55:00.001+08:00

Thinking of re-doing up this space.. been far too long since i did anything to it..
Stay tune..

Updates

2009-05-16T18:14:00.000+08:00

4 down 1 more to go! Gonna start mugging hard tonight!!!

Randomness

2009-05-12T00:13:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. been rather busy with my studies recently so it's like really really rare for me to have time to post any updates...
Been neglecting this space..

This has been an avenue for me to voice out my frustration, my unhappiness ...

Life has since gone really quiet.. No more emotional woes, no more financial difficulties, conflict with the ODAC-IANs have been sorted out.. nothing seem to really bother me nowadays... except of course the exams..
It's pretty cliche but i still must say it.. when u hit rock bottom, the only way is up.. and there's where i'm heading right now.. Life has been pretty tough the past couple of months.. and like the recession.. it's picking up right now..

The papers have been relatively okay.. might not do as well as i thought but heck.. i never wanted to score distinction or whatsoever .. my only aim was to clear all modules!

I've been like drinking almost every night before I turned in.. not emo-ing... just wanted to learn to appreciate alcoholic beverages better...

Just drank a bottle of Heineken .. it doesn't taste as bad as I first drank it.. the more i drink the more it taste like plain water.. that's probably the reason why people drink them in dozens.. :)

1 more week to go.. i will be a free-man! Really wanna catch up with my poly mates.. it's been like forever since i last saw them .. really miss them lots!

Have since lost my inspiration to compose any poems.. there's nothing to keep me going ...

Alright shall turn in soon...

Exam period!

2009-05-07T19:45:00.000+08:00

Finally.. the exams are starting...
Just completed one of my papers today..
Wasn't really a good start to the much anticipated exam but nonetheless i will work harder!
Stats tomorrow! HAvent got much time to study yet.. feel like taking a nap first.. Should I?

Kulai JB

2009-05-01T03:12:00.000+08:00

Just came back from a night trip to JB Kulai..
It's about 40km on my bike.. and boy was the journey tiring...
I traveled with a group of fellow bikers (meeting for the first time) and our average speed was like 140km/hour..
My whole body's aching like mad now...
But it was really an eye opener! Went in a rush forget to take my camera along .. sigh..
Time to hit the sag.. a long day tml!

Where is she... ?

2009-04-25T03:47:00.002+08:00

So.. where is she... where is this beautiful girl? :)

--- Credit to WW for sending me the song..

Help needed..

2009-04-19T02:07:00.003+08:00

I'm actually looking for this song... I can't really remember the title but i think the chorus goes something like...
"where is she.. where is she.. where's the girl that blah blah blah.."
I think it's a boyband song..
So if anyone of you happen to know what song this is... tag me k!

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Haven't been myself lately.. wonder why..
My smiles fade whenever I'm not facing the crowd.. it's rather awkward that I've to keep putting on a cheerful side when I know deep down I'm not too happy...
I've really no idea why...
I'm just frustrated at everything...
I bet it's partly due to the weather.. sunny at times and rainy the next moment...

Lost again..

2009-04-16T15:13:00.003+08:00

If a sudden surge of emotions is define as having a mood swing.. then i believe i'm experiencing that...
I've no idea what's with me.. just feeling pretty depress, unhappy and lost..

My confident level is depreciating with time and I'm really experiencing a great deal of invisible stress...

Exams? Money? Relationship?

It seems like none of the above is affecting me or maybe all of the above...

Upcoming exams is indeed scary.. but I'm still taking it lightly.. perhaps that's what's causing my mood swings...

Financially, I'm unstable.. my account is showing me a balance of $5.00 .. but then again I'm collecting my fees in a couple of days time.. will this then be a factor of my mood swings?

Indeed, I've been labeled an emotional person. But having had no partner for a while and awhile more to go.. Does relationship even contributes to my depression? Though I must admit I still miss her every now and then..

Now, tell me, what's my problem???

Like a body without a soul..
My thoughts drifted out of the world...
Thinking of the have-been... the what-ifs..
I need the strength to carry on my dreams..
Grant me this wish..

---Louis Chin

Pri School Gathering

2009-04-14T02:35:00.002+08:00

Had a mini gathering last night with a few of my primary school mates.
Though I see a few of them individually every now and then, but it's really wonderful to see them as a group.
Individually we have very little in common. Put us together and what you'll get is the SPIRIT OF SGSS!
Though, initially, we were dampened by Sherleen's last min decision to be a "pilot", nonetheless it didn't stop us from meeting and certainly it was a night worth remembering.
Really looking forward to a bigger gathering.

Reminisce the days of the past..
We love each and every part..
Days of laughter peace and joy..
Days of all play and not much toil..

Fiery of Mr Yeow's cane..
Sights of Mr Chua's slam..
The moment where Miss Kang teared...
and the money we paid for Mr Chu's tennis balls..

How we missed the days back then..
But...SGSS is no longer there..
Memories live forever and on..
As we await the next time round..

Updates of progress

2009-04-11T00:44:00.002+08:00

Updates updates!!!

26 more days to my first paper.. here's my progress!

SOCI: 70%
Maths: 85%
Stats: 90%
Econs: 60%
IBM: 20%

I haven't touched on my IBM since after my prelims cause its my last paper and its like 8 days after the rest of my paper.. Hope my strategy works...
I'm really excited at my progress.. really really hope can do well!
Not aiming for first class though but just a pass in every modules!

Day

2009-04-10T01:57:00.002+08:00

An eventful day truly...
Met up with lots of people thus far...

Had a short water proficiency test earlier on in the evening..
Met up with Delvin for a short cigarette break...
Went for dinner at AMK S-11..
Went for Supper with Roy at Jalan Besah...

Going for service tomorrow morning!
Church.. yes .. you're not blind.. CHURCH!
Don't ask me why.. it's out of free will (like real right.. )

Anyway.. Happy Holiday people..
God sacrifice his life for us.. so let's all pray sincerely! :)

---Louis Chin

Furious!

2009-04-09T12:34:00.003+08:00

I was fined $200 for parking my bike at the void deck. I think it's damn dumb can.. everywhere people are parking illegally and they don't get fined while this is the 2nd time i got fined!!!
Anyway, I emailed the "Property Manager" of AJTC to signal my displeasure!

Dear Sir

I've received the mail that your division has sent me.

I'm willing to pay this composite fine of $200 but before I do that I would like to highlight a few points for your reference.

I've been a GIRO seasoned coupon holder ever since I got my bike but honestly how many motorcycle parking lots are there?

If you look around the district, how many motorbikes ended up parking at the pavement, void decks, roadsides etc...

Many a times, I came back late at night, I had to circulate around the vicinity to look for a parking space, but to no avail.

Indeed, a parking coupon does not entitle you the "right" to a parking space like in a private estate. But it does certainly meant that you would not be fine for parking anywhere within the "zone" certify by the coupon.
However, if there aren't any parking space left for that particular day will consumers like us, be refunded for that day?

I took a risk to park at the void deck not because I want to, but because on that faithful night there wasn't any parking spaces left around the area!

I'm not challenging your authority, but being a division manager of AJTC, aren't the lack of parking spaces a concern of the town council?
With the mass construction work going on around the area, the parking situation has been made worse. Cars have now resort to taking bike parking lots and what's left for motorcyclist like me?

I'm disappointed that the appeal didn't go through but I'm more disappointed with that fact that the parking situation hasn't improve from my first summon dated in 28th July.

Thank you for taking the time to read this mail.

Yours Sincerely

Louis Chin

His reply came back 24hours later...

Dear Louis,

I empathise with your difficulty in finding parking lots for your motorbike. I have conveyed your feedback and frustration to the HDB for their follow up, as provision of carpark lots is under their purview.

Notwithstanding the above, it is still an offence to park your motorbike in common areas not designated for parking. Further, we have accorded you the leniency of waiving your first summon issued to you on 28 July 2008, with ample warning that no appeal for repeat offence shall be entertained.

As such, we regret that our management has turned down your appeal.

Should you continue to experience difficulty in finding parking lots in your zone, kindly inform HDB of such problem. When you noticed illegal parking by other motorist taking up motorcyle lots, you may call HDB Carpark enforcement tel no: 1800-2721409.

Regards,
Joseph Wee
Property Manager
Aljunied Town Council

He's not even addressing my problems, just pushing it away to any other departments involve!
Good Job man.. now i know what Property Manager of AJTC does...

Things happened for a reason..

2009-04-08T01:52:00.002+08:00

I'm really lost for words right now...

Seeing my friend of so many years on the verge of a mental breakdown... just made me realised how vulnerable humans are to emotions..
Life's full of ups and downs...
and indeed it isn't always a bed of roses..
but then again.. what did she do to deserve this hell...

I always tell myself "things happened for a reason" and I believe that she will turn out stronger than before...

To the Emo Queen--- SHer

2009-04-06T16:28:00.002+08:00

Whatever happens.. I'll be here for you.. as a friend, jiemei, big brother or sister...
My shoulders are not huge.. but it's big enough to hold on to responsibilities...
You're going through a phase of uncertainty, heartaches and heart breaks..
Don't keep things to yourself.. though most of the time you know I will scold you but it's all for your own good!
Cheer up my dear.. We are honestly damn worried about you.. call me if need be and I'll be willing to lend you my ears and shoulders!

Text me when you feel like.. for my phone is never off!

--- Love YR

Day breaks..

2009-04-04T04:52:00.002+08:00

Stomach growling..
Eyelid trickling..
Cigarette lighted..
As the clocks are ticking...

Birds are chirping..
It's time to start awaking..
Here I am..
Still blogging with much awaiting..

Turning in...
As a brand new day awaits..
--- Louis Chin

Pearl and Jiali makes 2..

2009-04-02T04:44:00.003+08:00

I'm beginning to see this growing trend in ODAC..
That Jiali's buddies are mere cowards...

I text Pearl a few days back.. and i was astonished by her reply... don't wanna elaborate much though.. but all i can say is she's someone who mix work and personal life..

Nonetheless her message just drove me nuts that I feel like giving her 2 tight slap...

and so.. as usual.. their trend is to "act the victim" .. that LOUIS (yours' truly) had misunderstood her.. blah blah blah.. crap!

It's really total crap.. I've never even victimize her.. she's one selfish bitch who thinks that only she needs to study for her exams while the rest can all have fun with the notice board!

What crap man!

Guess what... this is what's in her msn nick.. "sometimes it's just too tiring to explain things.."

Sounds familiar? Ya quite right.. the replica of Jiali.. wanna act the poor soul again..

DAmn all this people just have no guts to admit that it's their fault ...

With people like this two.. i bet ODAC will have more problems in future..

---LOuis

Re-live the days of pri sch..

2009-03-30T04:51:00.002+08:00

It's really surpising how people have changed over the years...
12 years to be exact...
It seems like yesterday when we were still fooling around in shorts...
Time truly flies...

No amount of words can fill the emotions that I'm having right now..
I'm really glad to know that they are doing so well ...
Though we still fool around as if we were 12.. but deep down I knew it's not like before where we are carefree and stress-less...
Beneath the smiling mask is a face of lots and lots of burdens and workload...

Relationship, work, studies, family...
All these never occurred to us in anyway when we were 12...
Twice as old now.. it's only just right that we undertake all this responsibilities...

It has been really a good night for me..
Though only a few of us.. but we relive the days of the past...
I'm looking forward to the next meet up!

Sher: Don't feel sad ya.. though it may seem like the end of the world to you.. but we do care.. feel free to just give me a buzz :)
WW: Don't let time restrict you.. follow your heart.. if you think he's right just go ahead.. and one word of advice... "STOP FOOLING ARD!"
Del: Though you don't usually show it.. but if you're feeling really down.. let's sweat it out at hougang complex!

Funny conversation!

2009-03-27T01:21:00.002+08:00

Omg I had a conversation with Sherleen, my pri sch mate.. this was what she told me..

sheR- how can i stop coughin..? says:
huh u dun have childish side?
i rmb u eat rubber in pri sch
hahaha!

Ruk|a--->living life to the fullest... exams here i come! says:
...??
got meh
dun anyhow leh
wha lao eh

sheR- how can i stop coughin..? says:
u ate ur eraser

Ruk|a--->living life to the fullest... exams here i come! says:
u let my student here this
they will laugh one leh

sheR- how can i stop coughin..? says:
really!!!

Ruk|a--->living life to the fullest... exams here i come! says:
LOL
wha lao eh

sheR- how can i stop coughin..? says:
u dun rmb?

Ruk|a--->living life to the fullest... exams here i come! says:
since when
i dun rmb lah

sheR- how can i stop coughin..? says:
i tink either u ate the whole eraser or u ate the rubber chips
haha

Ruk|a--->living life to the fullest... exams here i come! says:
...???
eh
where got

sheR- how can i stop coughin..? says:
got lar, tink u forget liao

sheR- how can i stop coughin..? says:
haha
really lar
u ask me if i think u dare to eat the eraser

Ruk|a--->I ate eraser during Pri Sch Days!!! says:
realy meh???
hahaha
wha lao eh
i got so stupid meh

sheR- how can i stop coughin..? says:
i said no, i dun tink u will do that cos its so disgusting

Ruk|a--->I ate eraser during Pri Sch Days!!! says:
hahahhaa

sheR- how can i stop coughin..? says:
and u really did it!
haha

She insisted I ate eraser during my pri sch days.. my god!

Loving Owning?

2009-03-26T01:03:00.002+08:00

Loving doesn't meant owning..
It's to see her
Spending each day with a wide grin..
Waking up every morning with a smile..
Shedding tears of joy rather than sorrow..

As long as she's happy.. I'm happy..

--- Louis Chin

To the special you...

2009-03-23T23:34:00.003+08:00

It was really heart warming receiving your email...
I appreciate the love you showed me in the past..
Life goes on and I really hope that someday we can be together as one again..

A moment of honesty...
A time for you and me..
A love that will never be replaced..
A love like no others..

For you i live..
For you i breathe..
For everything you did...
Will long be re-live (in my memory) ...

Your smile your touch and your every breath..
Will never be forgotten in this short life span..
I miss the days you went away..
For this moment will never feel the same..

Cherish you I never did..
Failing you I always done..
Let the tears dry away..
As a brand new chapter awaits..

Time can never be reverse..
Love cannot be rehearse...
Fate crossed our path..
For making you my other half..

Life goes on..
People moves on..
Let's get going..
For those awaiting..

Take care my dear...

A night out...

2009-03-20T01:52:00.002+08:00

Thanks to Yi an.. I decided to embark on something wayyyyyyyy out of extraordinary today...
I was mugging earlier on with Yi an and I must say he drive me nuts! Half the time I'm trying to explain his mistakes to him!!!
But I'm so glad he managed to learn something today!
So off we went for a quick dinner.. and yah.. I decided to be a nice guy by sending him home (I always have been.. maybe not to Jiali) but we didn't want to go home so early...
And so... we went to pick up BOon and head for Kylie's place and chatted ever since...
When was the last time we even chatted for such a long hours.. it was really a nice ventilation session for me..
We(me and Kyl) just threw every unhappiness we had with ODAC...
Honestly, the events have not even begin and there are already so much unhappiness .. what will happen when the events are coming thick and fast...?
Perhaps it's time the "CLIQUE" decides to come out with a PLAN amongst themselves to keep the cohesiveness going (not that there is any) but really since ever decision, be it big or small, evolves around them... maybe they ought to come out with a "GRAND PLAN" so that people like ME.. will finally rest my soul and think along the same line...

Honestly speaking.. I'm still not very convinced that JR is "such a nice guy" as he seems.. there's always a lot of hidden agenda behind his smiling mask.. are they for real?
Rumours don't kill me.. Backstabbers never succeed.. go ahead man.. just give me your best shot.. for I'll never react :) because it's way past me man!
As for JL please get a life.. stop hiding behind ur pathetic mask and pretend to be the victim all the time.. yah the world maybe on your side now.. but not for long..!

In ever show.. when the lead actress cries.. people will show sympathy.. but when she keeps crying .. audiences will get frustrated cause all she ever does is CRY!

Get a life!

Louis

Emotionally draining

2009-03-18T00:18:00.002+08:00

Are my shoulders big enough for all this responsibilities?
Am I trying too hard?
Maybe it's time i let go some...

I was dead enthu when I got the role as a Maketing Head in ODAC...
Somehow.. the fire died down because of a lot of things that's been going on...
I'm really damn bloody tired of all this shit that's happening in my life...

Am I being respected as a HEAD?
Or am I just a puppet...?
Does people appreciate what I did?
My contributions?
It seems that nothing has come.. no one has replied to an issue i brought up months ago..

Well perhaps they have their own plans..
Maybe it's time I should just "GET MY JOB DONE" and forget about "DOING EXTRA"...

I'm damn tired.. !
Please let me rest...

Louis

Time to reconsider..

2009-03-16T22:24:00.002+08:00

Perhaps it's time I reconsider my role in ODAC...

--- Louis

End of Mocks..

2009-03-13T16:32:00.002+08:00

Finally... End of mocks...

Time to rest.. for the big event~!

After this weekend.. It's time to mug again~!

Soci

2009-03-12T02:51:00.002+08:00

The more i try to study SOCI the more fraustrated i become..
I'm really on the verge of a mental breakdown ...

I should be able to clear section A but section B and C i've absolutely no idea what's going on.. i'm honestly going for 34 marks only but what if.. what if i can't get 34 marks??
That meant I've to endure another year of SOCI.. I'm really trying damn hard to memorise every little piece of information such that my mind gets really saturated every night before I sleep..
The diversity of the questions make it even more stressful as I can no longer rely on my "spotting question" techniques..
I've tried extracting information from the recommended textbook but the language the authors used are like ALIEN! It's absolutely out of the world!
PLs.. just let me clear this module once and for all!

For my beloved mei mei..

2009-03-06T00:16:00.004+08:00

Sheila meis.. this is for you .. this is the least your da ge can do..
Get well soon!

An announcement that came inevitably..
A night of well wishes and concerns..
A love you gave your all..
A relationship I thought will never fall...

A period for you to grief..
For the memories will never leave..
A period for you to cry..
To turn to us and not feel shy...

The heart is bleeding...
The tears are flowing...
The sounds of laughter..
Has long gone missing...

Let the emotions flow freely..
For it affects you greatly..
Forgive and forget...
The relationship that went off track..

It's neither your fault not his..
It's always the time that is..
Time is a friend or foe..
For this we'll never know..

Take care my little one..
For you have been the one..
That brings laughter to everyone...

Let the smile be back to you..
I hope it will be soon..
Love you lots...

--- Louis Da ge :)

She
Has
Everyones'
Intensive
Love
Always

Updates

2009-03-06T00:04:00.003+08:00

Oh GOD! My zen just died!!!
Argh!!!

Finally saw some light in my Soci revision!!!
Gonna give up on section B.. not worth it.. need to study 5 chapters just to do one 25marks question.. economically it doesnt make much sense..

1 more week to go!!!

Pepper~!

2009-03-04T01:27:00.002+08:00

Let's post something happy!

This is my dog! Super tame and cute..
He's house trained but he's not for sale~! LOL!

The rain ...

2009-03-01T01:24:00.002+08:00

The smell of rain filled the air...
Droplets of tears streaming through the air..

Little by little..
They wet the towns..
Harder and harder..
They hit the ground...

Counting the droplets in the far horizon..
1,2,3..
More and more they came..
Catching up.. I lost count..

The sudden downpour drenched everyone..
Young and old alike..
Try as they might..
They fail to stay dry...

The rain came and went..
The night breeze came after them..
Chilling everywhere they went...

Trembling with cold..
I lighted a cig..
To breathe life into the air..

--- Louis Chin loves the rain..

Exam!

2009-02-28T22:31:00.002+08:00

2 papers down in the space of 2 days...

As the saying goes "you reap what you sow" ..

I've put in tremendous effort for econs and I guess I did okie.. though half the time I don't know what the paper was about.. nonetheless I think passing this module shouldn't be a problem come may...

Stats wasn't that ideal though.. Somehow because of the lack of time.. I screwed up my formulas.. really pissed with myself and also my calculator! Fancy on the verge of getting an answer and your calculator shows you "ERROR" . I was damn stunned! It was as if someone casted a spell on me!

3 papers more to go.. the first two papers were okie because I was sufficiently prepared.. the last 3.. I can only say God bless!

Time to rest my mind for the night.. Gonna start mugging yet again tomorrow!

A moment ...

2009-02-26T00:58:00.002+08:00

Walking alone through the deserted pathway...
The road ahead seems gloomy...
The lonely crescent casted some light...
It wasn't enough...

The temporary torch from my lighter ignited my cig...
A puff with every step..
A breathe of freshness with every intake..
My shadows never forsake me all this while..

The structures around me are wonderfully constructed..
Trees in line..
Flowers blooming..
Sound of nature from deep within..

I took some time out to think..
Of the past, present and future...
The past has been missed..
The present has been tough..
The future still holds.. for it hasn't been shown..

The inter-mitten sound of passing motors..
Broke the beautiful silent..
As well as my thoughts..
Frustration starts to overwhelm me..

My life is in a total disarray..
The decisions I made..
Has gone against me...
I want to make it right..

But I lack the strength, courage and direction...
I'm lost...

--- Louis Chin

Updates of progress

2009-02-24T01:02:00.002+08:00

Damn the more i study the more worried i became..

IBM: 50%
Stats: 80%
Maths: 80%
Econs: 60%
Soci: -100%

Soci is really a killer.. i don't know how the hell to study for this damn subject! I realised my lecturer suckssss!!!

Pre-Exam Anxiety Syndrome...

2009-02-23T03:04:00.002+08:00

Eyes swelling from insufficient sleep..
The next 3 months is probably the most significant in my 24 years..
Dreading what awaits...
Will I do well to pass?
Will I have to repeat?
Will I be forced to drop out?
As the clock ticks.. my heart beats faster..
Suffering from pre-exam anxiety syndrome...

A place no longer I call home...

2009-02-20T01:27:00.002+08:00

I'm seriously considering whether to privatized my blog ...

Nowadays.. I'm having a huge dilemma whether to blog my feelings down or just simply blog for the sake of blogging..
If i were to blog like "i'm missing you" .. somebody out there is bound to get aggitated, excited, grumpy, sad..
It's like I'm being influence by an external factor that limits my scope of writing!

I love my tag box.. though it remains largely inactive nowadays but it's a place where I can converse to friends around.. it's like a mini MSN..!
It is, however, a double edge spear. People hide behind a nick and starts spourting nonsense... that truly amaze me~!

I love this space of mine.. it has all my sweat and tears.. all my fond memories.. but it's becoming more and more mundane as my entries are now no longer genuine.. it's becoming like a "show" where i just have to "staged a play" ...
It's PLASTIC!

I'm not someone that can converse very well.. not someone who loves expressing my thoughts verbally but I love writing.. I love to tag down my feelings.. but because ... oh well .. I can no longer show my feelings.. !

Sigh..

Sadly...

It's akin to ...

an actor without a play...
a boy that lost his toy...
a runner without his spikes...
a dog that won't bark...

Louis

Updates

2009-02-19T11:30:00.002+08:00

Finally found the time to update my blog... !

Anyway passed my class 2 days ago! Phew... licence now finally complete! YEAH!

Life has been rather mundane recently.. study, tuition, study, tuition.. it's a repeated cycle over and over again!

Progress!

2009-02-17T01:10:00.002+08:00

I'm happy with my progress so far!

IBM---> 40%
Econs---> 50%
Maths---> 70%
Stats---> 40%
Soci---> 20%

I finally finding the joy in studying again! Woooo.. the momentum is back.. with not much of a distraction.. i can fully concentrate on my revision!
My prelims are less than 2 weeks away and I'm hopeful that i should be able to complete at least half of my revision by then..

Exams less than 3 months away.. keeping my fingers crossed that i can do well!

Valentine's Day!

2009-02-14T04:31:00.003+08:00

It's Valentine's day yet again...
An unofficial festive that everyone would love to celebrate.. friends, couples, families..
To me it's just but an occasion where entrepreneurs mark up their prices for almost everything! Flowers, gift wrappers, chocolates, hotels, meals etc...
However, foolishly enough people still spend! Not because they "want" to but rather they "have" to!
Having read so far.. you would have come to a conclusion that Louis is not romantic at all!
Truth is I certainly am not! Or rather I choose not to..
Selectively there are times where I feel it requires much much more effort and attention.. for instance.. your love ones' birthdays, christmas, anniversaries...
How much does a bouquet of flowers cost you on V's day as compared to any other days?
Why give flowers only on V's day and not any other day?
Why dine out and squeeze with the rest of the world when you can just have a simple meal at home?
So many whys and yet the only answer anyone could give is.. "It's Valentine's Day"

It may sound cliche but its true that "ANY OTHER DAY CAN BE VALENTINE'S DAY!"
I'm sounding sour but seeing so many of my pals and mates being consume by this over rated occasion just make me wanna stand up and clap for the people who have commercialized this occasion. They certainly has done a great job!

Not that I'm not willing to go out on Feb 14.. rather.. I just felt is it a must?
Can't I have candlelit dinner on Feb 15,16 or 17?
Can't I buy a gift on Feb 11,12 or 13?
Can't I buy flowers on Jan 31?

Okie I know.. it will lose all it's significant if I don't do it on Feb 14.. but all this are very subjective!

YOu might be thinking why then do we celebrate Chinese NEw Year on Jan 26 and not some other dates..
That's because it's an OFFICIAL FESTIVE for chinese all around the world!
WE DON'T HAVE A CHOICE!

It's definately not an occasion where I will be paying special attention to..
I'm sorry but honestly I just feel .. everyday is V day if you;re with the one you love. Period.

Happy Valentine's Day People!

The many side of my VP.. Sheila...

2009-02-12T00:59:00.003+08:00

The greedy side...

[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
tmr going for stats? haha.
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
of course lah
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
u think im u ah
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
the past 2 weeks nv go
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
oie what.
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
i confirm u will see me tmrw. hahaha.
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
yah yah
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
i wait and see lah
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
haha if i appear how, u treat me to drinks okaye.

as the conversation proceeds...

Ruk|a---> shag! says:
i buy 2 for u
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
1 before class
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
1 during break
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
lol... =x
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
enough not
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
or u want 1 after class also
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
eh 1 enough. i'm not greedy. haha.

The thick face side...

Ruk|a---> shag! says:
we're sibligns leh
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
haha eh wait.
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
how come we are siblings ah and since when? lol.
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
lol
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
we got similar face mah
LOL
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
yeah lor. eh i realise that theres one picture look rather similar! =x

[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
lol yah the smile and the eyes.
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
erm understatement
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
my eyes look nicer
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
oie walao. so mean of you. hahaha. bahhs.
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
omg
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
i realised
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
our eyes
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
hahaha
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
its my greatest attraction leh
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
and i cant believe im sharing it with u !
[b][SHEILA][/b] says:
haha see! i also can attract with my eyes! =D
Ruk|a---> shag! says:
*puke*

Over..

2009-02-11T00:30:00.002+08:00

Somehow or rather..
I'm starting to feel the distant between me and them..
Perhaps I'm being oversensitive..
Long gone are the mass conversation...
Even a simple "Hi" no longer exists...
The days we mugged together has long been over..

Maybe just maybe... I'm the outcast..

Too tired to think.. too lazy to move..

Fast asleep as my bed consumes my soul..

Night ...

A brand new day awaits me..

Louis chin...

The End of New Year..

2009-02-10T00:30:00.003+08:00

The full moon spells the end of a festive...
Sound of mahjong tiles, shouts of "ban luck" and the tattering of coins has faded as the clock ticks..
It's been an astonishing 15 days...
One of the busiest period perhaps..

Looking back... I enjoyed every single moment of it..
From the reunion dinner, to playing cards at my buddies' ..

As I grow older... new year just have a different meaning totally..
It used to be a period where I can collect really lots of red packets..
Right now.. it's a period of gatherings... seeing my cousins growing up by the years.. catching up with my buddies who's been away for the whole year ..

Even though new year has lots its significant over the years.. it has well undertaken a whole new identity..

Today marks the end of new year.. a whole new year awaits.. success or failure shall be unveil the next year round..

Happy 2009 people.. as we anticipating another new year..

Face me like a man..

2009-02-09T00:07:00.002+08:00

I know people aren't too happy with me for being overly-friendly..
Happy moments don't last...
Just a few days after COC.. things are getting really political now..
What did I do wrong?

It's scary to know behind a innocent smile ... is a frightening evil laughter..

The one closest to you are in fact the people who backstabs you .. i finally realised what it meant..

I don't think i have to explain my behaviour nor my body languages.. but honestly please get your facts right before you start flaming me...

and for christ sake.. if you aren't too happy with me.. stop hiding behind a mask/nick.. stop doing things behind my back.. face me like a man.. not some cowardly pussy using people to hurt me..

You know who you are..

ODAC COC 2009

2009-02-06T17:18:00.003+08:00

An adventure that finally ends...
A memory that lives till the end..
The honour shall now be passed...
To juniors that are up to the task...

We pledge to stay united..
To live up to what is expected..
The challenges ahead awaits..
We will not be afraid..

A day you truly deserve..
A night you must be served...
A celebrations that will not lack..
Fun, laughters, tears and peace...
With ODAC leading the pack..

---Louis Chin

Post Birthday Blog

2009-02-03T00:12:00.003+08:00

Celebrated my 24th birthday on Friday and Saturday..

On the 30th.. Kylie and I had a joint birthday celebration with our beloved ODAC-IANS..
Thanks to our birthday planner (Boon and Pam) we had a wonderful dinner at Sakae Marina Square...
It didn't actually look like a birthday dinner .. rather a reunion dinner for us as there were a lot of seniors who turn up!
Camwhoring was the objective that evening... everyone just took out their cameras and snap away!
We had at least 10 cameras on the act all the time!
I never expected any presents honestly..
When Wanting presented me my present I was really lost for words.. on top of that.. Pam got me a sleeping bag.. Adeline and Jiae got me a shawl (which i really love it!) and Sebas and co got me a "CAN" of shirt.. haha..
Birthday isn't complete without a cake .. and of course they got me a cake as well.. and I'm utterly speechless.. :)
We went over to Liquid Gold (a pub along selegie road) to drink the night away.. As usual.. getting me drunk wasn't such a difficult task afterall as I puke all over myself and KO after the clock strikes 12..

On Sat morning.. I went over to Ms Chian's place to collect ANG BAOs!
My SC6 had a mini birthday celebration for me.. year after year they will never fail to make an effort to celebrate my birthday.. and I'm really touched because here it is.. a group of friends who never left me all this while even when my chips were down!
They got me a pull and bear jacket which really suits my style! I was still telling Angela that they are one of the few girls who knew what to get for me ..
Thank you SC6 + Channnnn tellll... :)

And of course.. my own brothers.. we went to have crab dinner at AMK.. and boy were the crabs big!
My camera wasn't available at that point of time.. hence no photos.. :(
Even though its only 7 of us (Kae joined us after the dinner) .. I still felt very blessed to have them around me.. we knew each other since pri school and up till today we still kept in contact...
They got me a FP shirt bet its damn costly! But yeah this guys are super generous when it comes to presents..
We went to Double O after dinner and as usual.. it didnt take too long to knock me out..
The can of baron did the most damage.. !

*PS i will post the other pics as soon as i get them .. :)

Regrets...

2009-02-01T11:29:00.002+08:00

I would rather wish ....

To have you than the present...
To hold you than letting you go..

Maybe it's not meant to be...
Maybe we've taken a wrong step..
Maybe just maybe...

I'm feeling sick and lethargic from all those drinking..
Thanks for sending me home last night...
Thanks for the lovely present..
Thanks for everything..

I'm so sorry things have ended up in this manner..
It's not intentional..
Forgive me...

Fun!

2009-01-28T06:37:00.004+08:00

The past 2 days went in a flash..
Before i even realised it.. i've had 4 days of fun without books!

Met up with ODAC-IANS for a movie and pool session earlier which lasted through the night..!

Time to stop partying and start studying!

Happy erm Sad New Year...

2009-01-26T16:26:00.002+08:00

Chinese new year seems like a distant festive this year...
For the past couple of years.. the first day of the year is always happening.. having visited my grand's place earlier.. there wasn't anywhere else I have to go but home..
No matter how strong I am, how happy I was .. memories are still there..
I text her today wishing her a very good year ahead.. half heartedly anticipating her reply...
Perhaps its really a good year to begin with.. her replied came awhile later and I knew at that very point the stone in my heart has finally been released..
She had been one of the most important person in my life.. she's moved on.. and so have I...
Thank you.. this festival just reminds me so much of you...
Happy New Year...

Life's an art...

2009-01-24T16:31:00.003+08:00

In life, we often fail to appreciate the scenary around us...
The busy lifestyle of ours consumes our priviledges to enjoy the simplicity of things.
We are the labour of our own sucess, dreams and work...
While riding back from Bukit Panjang earlier, I took an exceptionally long time to get home--- an hour to be exact.
Yes indeed, I have taken a wrong route, not because it was accidental but rather intentional.
I allow my heart to rule my head for once.. as I wanted to try a new route.
Humans are afraid to take a new step because in our society ... mistakes cannot be condone..
This decision of mine reaps intense satisfaction. Riding passed some familiar ground, I was amazed by the greenary, something which I have failed to notice for the past couple of years.
I stopped along Mandai Rd... facing the reservor, I realised just how much I took this place for granted... never once stopping to look at this sacred ground even though this has been a route to and from camp.
Life is an art.. unless we start slowing our pace.. we will never be able to gawk what nature has for us...
The sea is calm... and so is my heart...

SPREE!

2009-01-24T01:18:00.002+08:00

I spent $200 in like hmm.. 30 mins today!
Bought a pair of jeans from zara for $129...
Bought my Guess belt for $79...
There goes my hard earn tuition fees..

Goodness its 2 days away from new year ... unfortunately.. 1 month away from prelims!!!
For the first time in my 24 years.. I'm dreading the arrival of New year!

Stress level at it's peak!

2009-01-22T22:02:00.002+08:00

My mind is saturated...
My body feels isolated..
My soul has departed...

I'm having a hard time preparing for my exams..
I feel so sick, gutted and disappointed at my progress..

I wish I had started early..
Damn! It's already Feb!

The New year is just around the corner..
The festive mood isn't there..
No fancy wear...
Neither a pants to share...
No new shoes..
Only but a shelf of books!

--- Louis