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Thursday, January 26, 2012Day 2Packing her stuff just brings back so many emotions... When i packed her clothes, i realised that i've promised to give her a space yet until this very day, her clothes is still mixed together with mine in my wardrobe.. I used to grumble that all her stuff has taken over a large portion of my drawer.. but when i collected them from my drawer, there were only 4 bottles.. All these while i never really pay attention to all these little detials, i've been too engrossed with myself, my social life and never really spared a thought for her All i ever did was grumble, quarrel and made life very difficult for her.. and never once did she ever left me, always being patience and tolerating my nonsense.. I've never given her the status and the respect that she well deserve and taking advantage of her time and again.. She has always questioned me as to why am i treating her unlike the way i treated my ex-gf ... i always avoided the qns because i didnt feel any differences.. but having gone 2 days without her by my side.. i sat down and think.. i realised that here is a girl who will take care of me no matter what happens, who supported me in whatever i do and who have given up a lot of things for me... On the other hand, in my previous r/s i had to give up my social life because my world just evolved around my gf... I didn't realised how fortunate i was till i lost her.. I know i should be moving on since she has already started to move on... I hope i can.. Louis froze in time on 9:31 PM
Wednesday, January 25, 2012It might not be the most sincere way of apologizing but I really don't know what else can I do...I'm really sorry for hurting you time and again. Maybe you're right, i don't love you as much as you do. Throughout the years, i've forgotten what love really is. To me love means carrying out my duties whether i like it or not and that's the reason why our relationship couldn't make it. When we choose to end it, i knew it wasn't on impulse, as much as we love each other, we hated each other as well. Our problems have escalated to the extend that every time we quarrel, i will avoid it. Many a times, I choose to keep quiet because i don't want us to quarrel and hope the problem slips away quietly. If you ask me, what are the problems that we have? I really don't know... to me nothing seem to be the problem, and this attitude itself is the problem. I'm sorry for putting you down in front of your friends... I'm not a good boyfriend and I don't deserve the love and support that you've showed me over the years. I woke up this morning and I felt lost... For the first time in nearly 3 years, i've lost the strength to do anything.... you were my pillar of support that i've took advantage of time and again... All along I knew that if anything was to happen, i can turn to you because you are my best friend, my best listener.. even though I've always laughed and make fun of you, but you were the best I can ever have.. Most of the time, I don't say things like that to you because I don't express my inner thoughts out to anyone not even to myself.. I should have told you my intention of setting up a home with you.. i know its too late to say that now...  I set this goal and showed it to everyone in Shung's group... I already had the intention to proposed to you on our anniversary this year.. I know its not use saying all this because it doesn't change anything... I would have like all other occasions ask you to reconsider and let us get back together... one of the reason why i didn't do it this time round was because i felt that i'm being unfair to you if i were to do it. I don't want to keep making empty promises... I'm sorry, I really am... I love you, Jiali and i really hope that amidst all this, you can find the strength to study for your exams, i'm sorry it has to happen now.. i rather you hate me now than to hate me forever.. Louis froze in time on 9:10 AM
Friday, January 7, 2011Tension grows with each passing day..Unlike the past 2 years.. this is the most important.. For it determines my future and my pay.. I could have take things easy and bank on just clearing all my modules.. But this isn't me.. i hope to excel.. Excel in everything i do..that's me .. the perfectionalist me.. I've given myself undue stress.. every single detail.. i want it to be executed with perfection.. It's tough being me.. but i know its just a passing phase.. 5 months is all it takes .. and a good long break awaits.. Louis froze in time on 5:43 PM
Wednesday, August 25, 2010Being a teacher wasn't something i wanted when i was young...I could still remember vividly during my pre-school days, my teacher asked me "What do you want to be when you grow up?" I replied "A lawyer". That was when i was 5. Years later, after i graduated with my O level, i thought of the same question again.. "Chemist". And i was very serious about it.. because my love for chemistry grew by the days. So much so that I took up a Diploma titled "Chemical Pharmaceutical Technology" but it wasn't what i wanted... Yet I completed my course with an above average results.. Just before i graduated from poly, my lecturer asked me.. "what do you want to do after this?" I replied very confidently "I can't wait to start work in the industry because i want to show the world what i can do..." I was bent on making a name for myself in the industry.. not as a chemist nor an engineer.. but rather in the Sales and Marketing line.. From my boyhood dream of becoming a lawyer to Sales was a 360 degree change... until i started taking up tutoring.. Ever since i started tutoring 4 years ago, i realised i'm being drawn into an amazing stage.. where my performance as a tutor will be closely watched... it was tough at first.. parents judged me on my age and my dress code.. but over time i managed to win their hearts and build a strong rapport with their kids.. I've had many students over the past few years.. some did exceptionally well.. while others nearly made it.. I'm proud of myself as a tutor.. and love my job as a role model .. As i'm nearing the end of my academic calender.. i asked myself this very same question again.. "what do i want to be when i have gotten my degree" It was a fight between a teacher and a sales manager .. Days ago, I've sent out an email to MOE inquiring about the programmes they have for Degree holders. I'm really happy that I do not have to go through the whole Diploma nor the BSc programme again as it will take 3 years and 4 years respectively. They have a Post Graduate Diploma for degree holders, but what worries me is the recognition of my degree. After all, i'm not a NTU, NUS or SMU undergrad. Their reply came back today, and their answer to that was simply a "grey answer". Nothing substantial. This really disappoints me. I guess i will be applying for the PGDE sometime in Feb next year.. and hopefully the answer will be a YES! Louis froze in time on 2:16 AM
Monday, June 28, 2010I guess this is perhaps the longest period vacant from blogging.. a good 6 months..During this 6 months many things happened .. I've finally gotten myself a new bike.. a whooping 600cc touring bike which i had already used it to tour up north (Malacca, Bt Indah, Kulai) it's a really nice feeling to go holidaying with your bike.. My helmet business was a success and i managed to had a healthy profit margin of 25% but because the market is too saturated i've stopped selling them since the last helmet was sold.. Exams was pretty okay i supposed.. my initial fear of failing OTIA was must overcome after sitting for the paper.. so i think i'm saved again this year! The past two months passed by even faster than i expected.. I started my own tuition agency together with Andy(yes that's right my tutor of many years and now my business partner) and it should be up by the end of July.. I don't know whether it will be successful, but i'm giving myself a full 1 year to make it happen.. so if you're a tutor/student looking for a tutor.. visit my website at www.ibrilliant.com.sg when the web is ready ya! Not only did i started my own business, i've also been given a chance to take the insurance exam .. no don't start shunning away from me.. i've no intention to become an insurance agent! Just that, it's a very good opportunity for me to broaden my horizon .. passing the exam will give me an added advantage if i want to apply for a job in the banking sector.. that's my intention! I'm really looking forward to the 2nd half of the year.. Maybe i will start writing regularly again.. maybe I won't.. but still this place will be here .. till the day where i passed on.. :) --Louis Chin Louis froze in time on 10:48 AM
Wednesday, February 24, 2010I've started blogging since i was in poly year two.. and throughout this period i've had periods like this where i became totally lazy and unwilling to put in any effort in blogging..I should probably be keeping this blog all locked up once again... This has been a place where i've had many ups and downs recorded.. Exams are coming fast and furious.. with so many things to study i'm wondering will i be able to do well this time round.. Peace at heart.. gonna rush for my tuition .. Louis froze in time on 6:32 PM
Thursday, January 14, 2010It's amazing how some people can be so hypocrtical.. one moment they are laughing and talking to you or HITCHING A RIDE IN YOUR BLOODY CAR OR BIKE.. the next moment.. they backstab you like no tomorrow!FUck this people.. merely cowards! It has always been LOUIS AGAINST THE WORLD.. so how different can this period be??? KISS MY ASS! Louis froze in time on 2:04 AM
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_______________ My Profile .......... Name: Louis Chin Nicknames: RuK|a Birthday: 31st Jan 1985 School: SIM UOL Horoscope: Aquarius Music
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