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Friday, October 31, 2008My mind is in a total disarray...Flashes of her still exists every now and then.. On one hand i wish to get back on my feet... On the other i can't bear to let go... I know i'm contradicting myself.. but who's not..? Sigh... Louis froze in time on 12:03 AM
Thursday, October 30, 2008 For the first time in as many years.. My serangoon buddies are crazy over soemthing... Face Book Gang War.. We are like caught in this game and having mass conversation about who/where/how to "gangbang" people... It's been a while since we are all into some form of online gaming... The last time was dota which was ages ago... It really took my mind off seeing these grown ups flicking the mouse pad swearing at an opponent and stabbing each other... The enjoyment is not trying to knock the opponent down but rather the bonds we share with each other.. Though at times our agenda are completely different but the mutual understanding we have for each other can clearly be seen in times like this... Love you guys man.. Labels: Brotherhood Louis froze in time on 1:08 AM
Wednesday, October 29, 2008Went out with Queena over the weekend for retail therapy... tried to get a burberry's wallet, fred parry polo, fcuk tee shirt... but in the end i didn't get anything .. somehow retail therapy doesnt works for me..We tried to cam whore.. but i realised there wasn't any glow on my face anymore.. here goes..      Louis froze in time on 9:09 PM I'm glad i've friends that accompany me throughout this tough times... I know I will disappoint all of them if i were to say i'm still longing for her ... But a relationship of this length cannot be erased off easily... Not now at least... Labels: I'll stand tall.. Louis froze in time on 12:29 AM
Monday, October 27, 2008The wall-mounted clock reads 645am...I couldn't sleep... I'm wide awake.. No amount of nicotine can numb the longing i have for her... The heart is sobbing uncontrolably ... I know this relationship is dead and buried... Yet i'm still holding on to it.. Though I know i should be back on my feet But i just couldn't help but feel so hopeless and helpless... Shutting my eyes and pray that i can enter the wonderland where everything seem so nice and lovely... I failed.... Tossing and turning my mind wanders... To the first time i met her... to the places we went... to the hurdles we crossed... Tears rolled down my eyes ... This time round no amount of whinning will reignite the flame.. The chapter had ended a long time ago... The word that keeps appearing in my head... spells "THE END" Whatever it's suppose to mean I don't wish to know ... For I'm too much of a coward to face the facts... My only wish is for her to get over this painful memory... I'm tired.. so lethargic.. I will sleep now and hope everything will be fine when my eyes re-open... Labels: Love is harder than you can ever imagine Louis froze in time on 6:45 AM Somehow or rather during this period... all this emo songs just keep me going... 说说你为什么为什么要走 说你为何要分手 别拖求你别软弱 求你说出口分手的理由 但你却拖拖拖拖到什么时候 但你还拖拖拖拖到什么时候 如果要走却又为何停留 请你别拖拖拖大声的说出口 请你要痛就痛给我个快活 如果说你要走我不会留 我不去管以后 然后我们说清楚一句话就够 如果说你要走我不会留 我不去管以后 多么痛多么的难过 别越爱越难过 do do re re mi mi re do do do re mi do 然后连话都不说继续沉默 连朋友都没得作为了什么 然后跟别人说你其实还是爱我 就算了吧坏人我来做 Louis froze in time on 3:34 AM
Sunday, October 26, 2008Love is not about who's right or wrong...Perhaps i was too immature in the way i handled our relationship... I took it for granted... I failed you... Now that I've lost you ... I was able to see our relationship clearer... I realised how much you've suffered all along because of me... This might well be a very good break for you... That day's image still resides in my mind... Everything happened so fast.. too fast for my liking.. I was hugging you at one moment .. the next it was kiss good-bye.. Maybe you were indesicive.. maybe it was impromptu.. But whatever it is I know you're caught in the middle... All i knew was i loved you and maybe it was because of this love that things took a turn for the worse... Time and again I've let you down.. I remembered i told you this before... "I will not let you shed any tears of sorrow but of joy..." However it always seems to be the opposite... I regretted not cherishing you while you were here... I will pick myself up slowly but surely.. This setback is as painful as the previous 2 ... This is the first time in 3 years that i've to face problems myself... All along you were there for me... I'm really grateful for that... I guess i've been the one that's very dependent on you.. Now that you're no longer around I ought to stand on my own feet... I will learn to be more independent... Follow your heart in whatever you do... Even though i told you i don't wanna have anythign to do with you.. But deep down inside... I'm still very concerned about you.. Remember.. My shoulders will always be available for you to cry on... Labels: For you Mandy.. Louis froze in time on 12:38 PM Perhaps its the post-break up syndrome... I don't know but i'm feeling so gutted so sick.. I puke 3 times today and my whole body is so numb and weak.. I didn't sleep a wink last night... Tossing and turning in my bed thinking of the have-been... Breaking up is easy but managing it is tough... I'm on the stage of mental break down... Get me out of here pls... Louis froze in time on 12:32 AM 我讨厌阴天的风 冷得那么刺痛 只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞 昨天的风筝在角落 被谁丢到了路口 我很不想让你找到离开的理由 每一夜闭上眼睛 我看到了恶梦 你微笑但是旁边的人不是我 天空切开一道裂缝 直接割到我心中 不想装作脆弱 也不想爱得懦弱 其实我非常爱你不想失去你 难道我没有权利说我不愿意 你给了他的吻 虽然只有余温 可知道我多渴望抓住你的心 我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心 我每天假装开心害怕你离去 可不可以任性 求求你不要去 藏在我心里最后一句 其实还爱你 可不可以任性 求求你不要去 藏在我心里最后一句 其实还爱你 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JVIdKwRMD0&feature=related Louis froze in time on 12:23 AM
Saturday, October 25, 2008My mind is in a whirlwind..Going through a rough time.. This emotional ride doesn't seem comfortable... I'm drowsy yet i can't sleep.. The thought of how everything happened chills me.. I'm down very very down.. Louis froze in time on 3:38 AM It's sad that i have to learn the truth ... Things might not appear to be what they seem.. Most importantly the underlying reasons behind all this happening... I'm finding a thousand and one explanation to this new blow but yet I can't accept the fate.. Just when i thought everything was nice and proper I had to be dealt with the hard way.. Just when things were beginning to look up.. i fell a time too many... Perhaps i reacted in a manner i shouldn't... Perhaps i should have let go gracefully.. Perhaps it was not meant to be... Perhaps.. there are so many perhaps in life... But who really cares..? I loved you.. I saw a future in us.. but it takes two hands to clap.. i can't do it alone.. This chapter should have been closed a long time ago.. i forced it open.. i tried to re-write the ending but i failed miserably ... I'm disappointed and upset who wouldn't... but it all started because of me... This is probably a very good wake up call to me... to stop dreaming and get on with it.. I'm shattered.. I truly am... This might well be the very last time we're together as one.. from now onwards.. the path we take will be completely different.. I just hope i can be back on my feet again... Ah ru is dead.. there will only be Louis Chin.... Labels: Dead and buried... Louis froze in time on 2:30 AM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008It's pretty hard to imagine that time passes by so quickly..I saw Brendon a couple of days back at sentosa... so happened that he was part of Fiona's beach volleyball team... It's been like 2 years since i last saw him and how i loved the days where we skipped lectures to play pool and stuff... We reminisce about the past and floodgates of those days just opened.. I really love rekindling the older and happier days where everything was so much simpler ... Problems and troubles seem to grow with age .. as you grow older your shoulder gets broader because the burden you have to carry just grows with time.. It's true that friendships are meant to last.. that is after a long period of absent... Shall find a time to ask my pool-ing khakees out!!! Louis froze in time on 12:54 AM
Friday, October 17, 2008Sigh...What used to be the best of friends have now became merely but acquaintance... It's sad to see us becoming just "HI-BYE" friends but that's life.. The end is nearing! Louis froze in time on 11:10 AM
Tuesday, October 14, 2008Right Here's some of the photos taken during Dr Kevin's wedding.At Kevin's temporary flat 
Photoshoot session at some park 
Kevin's Place 
Fetching the Bride 
Louis froze in time on 11:00 PM
Monday, October 13, 2008Breathless i felt for the past two weeks..Can hardly breathe can hardly sleep... The pressure of wanting them to excel took over the tiredness... Soon i say.. soon it's all going to be over.. A brand new year awaits them... One and all i pray.. For them to be the predator than prey.. For them to nible the papers and fly the colours of excellence.. Good luck my kids.. Your tutor will be here.. Sharing all joys and woes when the time arrives.. Louis froze in time on 3:54 AM
Monday, October 6, 2008Friendships are meant to last a life time...Do they..? Friends are there to stay... Will they..? Buddies will weathered the storm and rain... Can they..? I'm tired... Tired of trying to be the one... Tired of getting everyone to come together.. Tired of thinking that everything is well and okie.. Tired of being non-chalant.. Since nobody bothers.. Why should I...? Always there when need be was on the lips of everyone.. Ironically... when needless.. the group shatters... I'm upset but what can i do..? The end is nearing... Louis froze in time on 11:09 PM
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_______________ My Profile .......... Name: Louis Chin Nicknames: RuK|a Birthday: 31st Jan 1985 School: SIM UOL Horoscope: Aquarius Music
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