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Thursday, July 30, 2009Having finished the book by Haruki Murakami moments earlier I didn't felt as excited as I started out to be...Many of you would have had similar experienced... When we started off reading a book (movies, drama or anything), the initial content was slow, dull and pretty much boring.. half way through, you started to get the hang of the writer's language and twist.. as you read on.. you are very much a part of the character.. and the more you read the more you want to find out the ending.. Having reached the end.. you found yourself in a situation where you hope that it didn't came as soon as you wanted.. Many thoughts came through my mind as the book covers came to a closed.. the pages passionately binded each other and as soon as the book came to a rest on the coffee table.. my world went silent.. The chatting of "ah beng stories" from the table next to me, to students in deep discussion in the enclosed mac and the noise from the pipe of bikes broke the silent .. I was in an emotional roller coaster having read this paragraph in Haruki's book ".. but in real life things don't go smoothly. At certain points in our life, when we really need a clear cut solution, the person who knock at our door is, more likely than not, a messenger bearing bad news." How very true this sentence is... life isn't a bed of roses.. things don't just flow smoothly without hiccups, technology never fails to fail people whenever we need them to function on important occasions... the traffic light always seem to turn red on you when you're rushing for time.. Most of the time when these things happened, I slump into uncontrollable fits... my mood became unpredictable and I became a really harsh person overnight.. ever since I've matured with age, I've tried to aim for perfection.. and because I placed a great deal of effort in everything I do, I became rather competitive... not with anyone but with myself.. I know reaching the zenith in every opportunity is hardly possible, but yet I'm still greatly affected by the fact that I'm not able to reach my ideal result and slowly I started to drift.. from everyone and everything.. Having a time out like this makes perfect sense ... it allows me to rest physically and mentally .. I'm kind of addicted to moments like this where I can have the world to myself with no added responsibility other than finishing my book and blogging thereafter. Completing the first biography marks a huge milestone in my 24 years... To be completely honest, I love reading a good book... and I'm truly not a very huge fan of biographies (with due respect) .. due to the fact that I believed everyone has a story to tell and biographies are often stories of how the author had fallen from grace, went through a lot of hell and became where he is/was today.. But this book tells nothing more than how he have given up on his luxurious lifestyle to pursue a dream that just came instantaneously... He stick till the very end with every goals he set for himself and though the going was tough.. he endured it all and break all odds to become an author.. "Having completed a race, you forget all about the pain you've endured to get to where you are.." --- Haruki Murakami --- Louis Chin Louis froze in time on 11:39 PM
Monday, July 27, 2009In life... there are many crossroads that one has to face...Whether we like it or not.. we've to make a decision somewhat.. It's like when you're standing at the pedestrian crossing... you've a choice.. to cross it even when the green man isn't showing or you can simply wait for the green man to appear and cross.. That is if you want to cross over to the other side.. however.. you can simply stay put.. and wait for the world to evolve around you ... seeing cars passing you with every min and the sight of the intermittent flashing green man before you.. Back to cross roads.. decisions making are perhaps the most frightening experience anyone has to go through.. because people are fearful of making a wrong decision.. many of us are afraid of making mistakes.. but the thing is... nothing is 100% in this world.. there isn't any decision that are bad decision.. it's just how one perceive.. Perception is indeed vital.. I have made numerous decision that i lived to regret.. yes.. but it's only after the process that I understand.. of course you always take something positive out of any poor judgment you made.. and this only serve to make you wiser .. people learnt from mistakes.. I just spoke to a friend with regards to her job interview moments later.. she's like dying to get a healthy income.. but the thing is she's worried.. worried about what comes after.. Will she be able to find a better job after this? Will she be able to work with another friend of hers? Will she be able to get the other job? Will she be able to.... Too many worries.. far too many.. opportunities come and go.. chances that comes knocking won't wait for you ... it's either a yes or no... Indeed it's only a natural thing to worry about not "having someone to lunch with" ... but haven't everyone went through the very same thing and still managed to acquaintance with people from the very same company? A lot of times, I made decisions with my eyes closed.. like the nike slogan "JUST DO IT" .. because i knew there are 1001 excuses to reject any opportunity but only a handful to accept it.. the more u think about it.. the more restless you feel... I know it's unhealthy to just stick my head in without considering.. but life's like that.. any investment can be a success only if you deem it successful.. vice versa.. even if you have made millions from an investment it can still be considered a failure.. it's how one PERCEIVED! I'm not entirely making sense in this long essay.. but I only have a point to make.. it all boils down to .. "What drives you..." Listen to your inner self and answer his/her call .. ultimately you don't live a life to satisfy others.. you live a life to satisfy yourself.. --- Louis Chin Louis froze in time on 2:13 AM
Sunday, July 26, 2009It's never too lonely to be alone..It's just how one perceive.. Nothing beats spending some quality time alone.. Finishing a book in a quiet corner of the earth where nobody knows you but yourself.. Not many people understand this kind of joy.. People who are on the same frequency will truly understand what I meant.. But for people who don't.. it's very hard to make them .. no matter how you try.. they never will.. I'm not isolating myself from the world... don't worry but i'm just really tired.. tired of answering phone calls, tired from planning, tired from explaining, tired of lecturing and tired of showing up... As stephanie sun once said... resting is to continue a longer route.. that's what i'm doing.. i wanna rest my mind for now... Kidos.. --- Louis Chin Louis froze in time on 6:45 PM
Saturday, July 25, 2009"It isn't about how fast you run.. rather.. how far you ran.." --- Haruki MurakamiTruly.. this is an exceptionally good book.. I'm not a big fan of biographies but yet Haruki Murakami's biography truly amazed me.. Just came back from some precious moment which i spent with no one but myself. Had a cup of hot chocolate to go with this really good book.. I've longed for such quiet moment alone.. where I can do some close reading and thinking with no one around.. No it isn't that I'm a loner and that I'm all caught up in my own world.. rather.. these moments are hard to come by.. as I aged with time.. I realized how important it is to spend some quality time by myself.. in fact I'm not shy to say that I love being left alone.. A few years ago, if anyone were to tell me that I would be spending 2 hours at McCafe all by myself.. I would have shut that person off and said it's impossible.. for I feared being left alone .. but ever since then.. things have changed dramatically.. This is the period where I can really examined what I've went through.. what are some of the things which I should have done that I haven't and what are some of the things that went really wrong.. It's never too late to change.. but it will be if we don't admit our mistakes and learned from it.. because no one is a SAINT .. everyone makes mistake... I'm not a buzzing writer.. I express myself very well in the virtual world.. however in the real world.. I tend to keep to myself .. no reason in particular.. It's a lifestyle I've chosen and sometimes my relationship with other people gets problematic because I've became a closed book and people are not really used to seeing this side of me... soon soon.. they will get used to it :)   Louis froze in time on 11:31 PM
Thursday, July 23, 2009I met up with TL just hours ago for she had something that she want to pass to me from my mentor...I didn't know what it was till she revealed that it's actually a book.. A book? I didn't lend my mentor books of any kind.. perhaps the only time I spoke to her on books were "Man and Boy" and "Man and Me" .. But still, I received the book with grace.. and the title of the book is "What I talk about, When I talk about.. Running" Of course, I haven't started reading.. but soon.. I read through my mentor's blog and I know there's something she wants me to learn from this book .. maybe I've already guessed it.. But still what triggers her to send me this exceptional gift.. Quoted from her blog "We have never said that if you do not return with a medal, you will disappoint us. Running in a race is a strange activity. It is done in solitude but together with the rest of the runners. You listen to your own footsteps and your own breathing rhythm. And only you yourself know when you are pushing your limits and pressing on when giving up seems to be the easiest thing to do. No one except you know when you have run a good race." Winning isn't about everything .. it's about the effort that you've put in... the sense of accomplishment prevails more than anything else... Thank you Ms Chian.. i look forward to seeing you soon.. --- Louis Chin Louis froze in time on 2:13 AM
Wednesday, July 22, 2009I suddenly felt a rush of emotions as I was blog hopping around...This is like the first time in as many months that I finally had the time to read through the blogs on my "Friend List" I really felt damn bad for not being able to be there for my friends when they were down.. (or am I needed in the first place...) Every drive alone makes me go deep in thoughts... I'm truly not as an open book as people deem I am.. that's because I'm always the man behind the mask ... it's daunting trying to put on a show... but that's life.. everyone is hiding behind a mask.. Sometimes I'm really half hoping that I can just break free from everything and everyone.. tuition, family, friends, ODAC and just go for a short holiday... If it wasn't for my bike accident I would have been gone by now.. fulfilling the trip to Taiwan that didn't went too well 2 years back.. I'll definitely be back there someday .. not entirely because of the place.. but because of the memories i had kept for the last year.. Traveling alone might seem really lonely.. but what diff does it make for people who eats alone, catching movies alone, drinking and watching their favourite tv programs alone? I honestly don't know whether this is the "real" me but I really feel like breaking away from life.. from the hectic and busy schedule ... can I? Friends have adviced me not to.. Friends.. were supposed to be with u when u needed them most.. yet.. this very group of people will choose to forsake you when you're down and out... They sway with popularity... this is the fact! Anyway I'm just bitching.. or am I? --- Louis Chin Louis froze in time on 2:52 AM
Tuesday, July 21, 2009I just realised i haven't really blog for a while..The past week has gone like really really fast.. Been busy gate-crashing ODAC's OG outings and of course planning for the next event ODAC NIGHT CYCLING! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ODAC Freshmen Camp The camp was in a way a huge success... it was really a tough journey prior to the camp but the effort was really worth it.. Though I didn't really get to enjoy myself as much as I want to .. but my freshies are truly one bunch of crazy folks.. There were many hiccups along the way but luckily the ODAC pillars didn't collapse and boy did we do wonders! All in all.. it was a camp worth remembering!      ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ OG 1 Dinner OG 3 chillax OG1 was the first group to have an outing and i was really amazed by their cohesiveness.. almost everyone from the group turn up.. I went gate-crashing their dinner since i've nothing much to do.. It's nice to see the freshmen so bonded after the camp! Hope the bonds stay forever and on! OG 3 chilling session was next.. over at timbre old school.. that place truly has a very nice ambiance .. I was really reluctant to go initially as I'm far too lazy to travel.. all thanks to Daph for bugging me throughout the day ..        ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Meeting Meeting and more meeting... Yet again, we have to start planning for the upcoming activity.. Night Cycling... Half way through the meeting.. I caught a glimpse of her.. it's been like almost a year since i last saw her.. I didn't felt a twinge of sadness seeing her with another guy.. rather i felt more at ease.. sensing that she's much happier than she was with me .. Anyway.. after the meeting we went for prawning at Bishan.. oh my i only got like 1 miserable prawn after an hour of prawning!!! What luck!  ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Finally OG 6 outing! Had a get-together with my freshie today.. felt really bad to be 2 hours late as i was busy talking to Vic's Mum and trying to get my bike alarm fixed... Anyway the turn up rate was pretty bad i guess.. half expecting the whole OG to turn up but nonetheless it was a good outing.. We had steamboat over at Bugis and spent half the time camwhoring.. and so my freshies already learnt the trademark of ODAC--- Camwhoring! Goodness me.. we had like 6 cameras snapping away every minute and my eyes nearly got blinded by all the flashes! Having had dinner and dessert.. Ben Kyl Pam and me went over to Bottom Tree Park to look for the rest of 13th for prawning.. yet again.. our catch wasn't that ideal.. i bet it's my luck man! Met up with Yichao and we went to JB immediately after my prawning session.. we felt like a king over there! The things are like really really cheap.. imagine smoking sheesha for like 15rm!!! Freaking cheap!      Alright that's it for the week.. man am i burnt out!!! More meetings tomorrow!!! ----Louis Chin Louis froze in time on 5:45 AM
Sunday, July 12, 2009A camp that started..With faces so alienated... The day drag on.. As bonds are beginning to form... Shouts of OG 1,2,3,4,5 and 6 Surrounded the walls of a place (dairy farm) with beautiful take.. Sweats trickle down.. As brows are starting to frown.. The unpredictable weather.. With the unpredictable courses.. Took them by surprised.. As the ropes pulled them up high... Fear was the last thing on their mind.. As they conquered stations after stations.. Sounds of JIA YOU coming from the OGLs Smile of relieve as they never fell... The camp ended as soon as it started... The reluctance of day one.. Took the turn on day three.. Bonds had formed.. That lasts forever and on.. Will we meet again? Was the question posted again and again.. High five all rounds... As we await the next year round... --- Louis Chin Louis froze in time on 4:07 PM
Monday, July 6, 2009Had an accident this afternoon...Bike skidded.. now my arms and knees are in bandaged! What a time... Sigh.. Gonna rest for the day.. next few days gonna limp around liao! --- Louis Louis froze in time on 12:08 AM
Wednesday, July 1, 2009Thinking of shopping for your beau but don't know what to get?Too bored at work and wanna do some online shopping? An all new metro blogshop by two of 13th batch ODACIAN http://mistermannequin.livejournal.com/ (The link is right below.. just click on it!) I've seen the clothes and personally I feel it's worth to buy.. not too expensive and its reasonably "rare" as you would not want anyone to be wearing something the same as you! Show some support ya! --- Louis Louis froze in time on 1:40 AM
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_______________ My Profile .......... Name: Louis Chin Nicknames: RuK|a Birthday: 31st Jan 1985 School: SIM UOL Horoscope: Aquarius Music
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